LoVe

Love isnt bout finding someone U cant live with;
Its bout finding someone U cant live without.

Cintaku Dipermainkan

jumpe lagu nie kat youtube...nice song indeed...yg nyanyi pon suare not bad....ita really a meaningful song....

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Tidakkah kau tahu sayang betapa ku sayang padamu..
Engkaulah insan yang ku cinta untuk selama-lamanya..
Tapi disebaliknya apa yang kau berikan padaku kasih dan sayang kini tiada.. pilunya di hatiku..

Kini kau berubah.. kau tak seperti dulu..
Mengapa sayang mengapa engkau jadi begini..?
Kini aku menyesal menyintaimu kerana cintaku dipermainkan secukup-cukupnya..
Hampalah hatiku dalam percintaan..
Engkau membuatku tidak mahu bercinta lagi sayang..
Mengapa engkau permainkan cinta yang sudah kita bina..?
Kini kalau tak sayang lagi berterus terang padaku..
Janganlah engkau menyiksaku..
Tak sanggup lagi ku menanggung dugaan cinta yang kau beri terhadap diriku..
Sakitnya hatiku sampainya hatimu.... kau tidak melayan diriku seperti dahulu..
Cuba kau rasakan apa yang telah ku rasa.. kini pasti kau juga akan menyesali cintaku..

Kini airmata pun mula mengalir..
Engkau masih belum berubah.. engkau tetap sama..
Kini aku meminta maaf kerana hatiku dah tertutup untuk dirimu sayang..
Lepaskan aku, bebaskan aku.. pergilah sayang, jangan kembali lagi...
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ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!

I MISS MY BABY!!!!!!!!!
Y CANT HE UNDERSTAND ME...???
LONELINESS IS KILLING ME NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FUCK OFF!!!!!

p/s:the blog below contain vulgarities...n sememangnyer tak sepatutnyer dtg dari aku....haiz....nie semua angkara marah nyer pasal....

hey bitch!!!!!!

yes u....im calling u bitch!!!! ko ingat aku heran sngt ker ngan jantan ko tu??? hei....sesungguhnyer aku tak heran k....ko bleh rilex sua....aku rasa jantan ko tu kenal aku lebih dulu dari kau gak nyer....stooopid bitch...doesnt mean calling each other dear...means aku menggatal ngan jantan kau ah k...Puhleseeee....!!!!! we noe each other dah lama...dats y tu mcm bodoh!!! jantan kau sendirik kadang2 panggil aku b...eh dulu aku pon dah pernah date dia lah...so now aku ngan dia kwn jek....aku pon ade mataer nak jaga lah bodoh.....atleast my baby is better off den him!!!lu bleh rileks sua bitch....wa tak heran ngan lu peh jantan....i got my man to be proud off!!!! arshhole!!!! n...prior to ur msg....ko ckp aper...takder konek lain ehk???? i got my man's dick to take care off....so buzz off bitch!!!!

Thnx for ur luv Hunn....

261007 marks our 2mths dating....thnx hunn for the tym dat we spend together....its really meaningful to me eventhou for awhile..as u hav to go to work...Hunn..luv u alot dear...i was so shock wen u called me up to mit me....hahahahaha....i tot dat im dreaming...but no...my baby did call me to mit me....im sooooo happy....we mit up at ur place...spend tym together...im so happy to c u dear....i dont tink im gonna giv out to u the letter dat i type out wen im super sad.....hope u understand wat i mean hunn....here d letter goes...




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Saturday 24/11/2007


Dear Wandy….

Its been a while since we met each other…just hope dat u r doing fine with ur life…even though I’m ur GF…I had never feel like one…u were so bz…my calls were ignored n all my smses were unrplyed by u….y dear…??Sometym I tink dat we r strangers….y must im d only one have to understand u?y u had never understand me??can u try to understand me n my feelings? I don’t want tis relationship to break…I sayang n cintakan u tapi pernah kah u meluahkan kata2 itu pada i??

Sayang…hari2 yg I lalui tak pernah bhagia…I slalu fikir…adakah ini balasan tuhan pada i???Balasan kerana menyakiti hati org lain…Syg…I tak sanggup lagik dibiarkan begini…I feel abandoned…diri I nie seperti tak pernah dihargai oleh u…apa salah I dear??Setiap mlm I menangis sendirian…memikirkan sejauh mana tis relationship will last…I don’t wanna break up wif u…I luv u wholeheartedly….u were there for me wen Ermie left me…but wen we were together in a relationship…u were always bz…I don’t noe y….am I too controlling??but as far as I noe I had never control u…im being understanding…I noe dat u r werkin in a bar n u’ll be bz all the tym…but dear….org lain pon keje…mcm mana sibok skalipon dorg tetap ada masa utk berjmpe GF dorg…did u try to act bz or u running away frm me….if its true mcm mana yg my fren ckp yg mungkin u ade gal lain….trus terang dgn I dear….jika dia dpt membahagia kan u…I rela melepaskan u…walaupon hati I akan terluka…I rela demi kebahagiaan u….Dear…I terlalu rindukan u…I miss ur touch…ur hug…I wanna be in ur arms now…mungkin org akan kata I giler…baru sebulan lebih dah syg gile babi…but trust me….once I luv dat sumone…I’ll always luv dat person…I berikan segalanya utk org yg I sayang…So far…im the only one who always msg or kol u…tak pernah skali pon I dpt sms dari u bertnyer kabar i…mmg I tak pernah mengharap tapi sebagai GF u I akan rasa gembira dan bahagia biler u wat mcm tu walaupon I tau u tak akan buat…Dear…kadang kala I sendiri merasa cemburu melihat kemesraan kak dik dgn abg faizal….dorg tu slalu bersama…atleast I’ll hear dat abg faizal will call him atleast once or d least msg…tapi i…I tak pernah rasa semua tu dgn u….i hilang tmpt bermanja…tmpt I kongsi masaalah i…kenapa dear….y are we driftin apart..???

Dear….i dah penat nak fakir tentang semua nie….im tired of crying n im sick of trying….Biarlah apa org nak kata…cinta I ttp pada u dan I akan tetap setia pada u….biaralh masa menentukan segalanya…I hanya berserah pada takdir….sekiranya ada jodoh kita….pasti suatu hari u akan mengerti dan memahami perasaan i….dan saat itu u akan tahu betapa I cintakan u…I tak akan putuskan hubungan ini…biar I sengsara dan merindui u selalu…kerana I tau cinta I hanya utk u….mengertilah syg bahawa cintaku hanyalah utkmu….tiada duanya….aku sayang kepadamu sepenuh jiwaku….aku akan terus menanti dan setia menanti agar pintu hatimu terbuka utk mengerti perasaan ku padamu….hanya kau dihatiku…

Happy 2mths Anniversary To My Dearest Wandy…
I will always luv u….
Only wif u my luv grows….

Hannah & Wandy
26/09/2007

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its 2 days b4 i mit u up hunn....i was soooo down dat day n decided to type it out to release my sadness....kindda feeling thou the letter rite....wakakakakakak....tis is me....i may look garang but actually lembik nak mampus n cenggeng....hunn....luv u alot....cant wait to mit u on our off day....luv u hunn....

,,,

~ Anak punai anak merbah...
Hinggap ditunggak mencarik sarang...
Anak sungai lagikan berubah...
Inikan pula hati orang...~


~Banyak lah org menanam pulut...
Saya seorg menanam padi...
Banyaklah org karam dilaut...
Saya seorg karam dihati...~

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miss my baby so much....its been 3wk since i last met him....haiz....wat gonna happen to our r'ship....no calls to each other...he's been so bz n got no tym for me...so sad actually....mcm matair hanya pada nama jek....

haiz....i kip tellin myself not to get bored in this r'ship....coz im easily get bored wif certain r'ship....haiz...i wanna kip tis r'ship for long coz i luv him....but...did he luv me the way i luv him?

i really hope dat he actually tinks bout my feelings too...eventhou both of us bz...i still took da initiative to call or msg him despite my buzziness...but he?no point grumble bout it...haiz...am i being selfish n not da understanding type??y must it always be me whohave to understand others...y cant they try to understand me??i always end up in da losing end....i dont wanna end up breakin up wif him....i've had enuff of breakin ups....had enuff of heartbreakin period....i juz hope dat im gonna pass of this phase smoothly....

baby...cant u try to understand me???y muz it always me???pls baby...we nid to talk tings out....theres communication breakdown between us...im tired of all tis...waiting and missing u goin to drive me mad dear....

hmmmmm

~ KELIP KELIP DISANGKA API...
KALAU API MANA PUNTUNGNYA...
HILANG GHAIB DISANGKA MATI...
KALAU MATI MANA KUBURNYA...~



~ APA DIHARAP PADA PADI....
TINGGI RUMPUT DARI RUANG....
APA DIHARAP PADA KAMI....
BUDI TIADA BAHASA PON KURANG....~



~Buah berangan masak nya merah...
Kelekati di dalam perahu...
Luka yang merah nampak berdarah...
Luka di hati siapa yang tahu...~



~Baik baik belayar rakit...
Tali biar panjang sama...
kasih syg bukan sedikit...
kalau boleh ingin mati bersama...~

miss ma baby!!!!!!!

miss him soooooo much....he been so bz lately....miss evryting bout him....
honey dont ya miss me tooo???wakakakakakaaka.....hearts him alot sia....
guez wat he said those 3 magic words!!!!!!!!! argh!!!!!!!!
im melting.....hahahahahhaha.....but he added another word lah....
BUT!!!!!!!! he only said it in sms...wanna hear it rite frm his mouth....
wen he said "i love u baby"...oh gosh....if he really gonna said dat infront of me...i tink im gonna pengsan seh....hahahahaha......

cant wait for my SyaitAM sista's wedding as dats wen he gonna follow me for the 1st tym mittin all my SyaitAM bro n sis....tot of askin him to wear same color...will have to tink bout it n me too have to find a proper baju dat suitable for weddin as we r goin wif his bike...u cant xpect me wear kebaya ride on bike rite....so d buruk seh....

crazy isnt it??? falling in luv so shortly after being dump...maybe its a bit crazy but u cant stop if love cuming ur way rite???isnt it???but for now...im still fobia to get committed...do still have feelings for emi thou....for i trully luv him...but i noe dat i dont hav any place in his heart rite frm d start...argh!!!! to hell wif it...he's happy now wif nurul his fiancee....pray for their happiness....may god bless dem wif lotsa kidz....

since eidul fitri is cumin tomoro i wish all muslims who read ma bloggie...minal aidil walfaizin walmakbulin,selamat hari raya maaf zahir batin!!!

for now im gonna carry on and missin ma baby....he's d rhythm of ma heart...hearts him alot!!!!

Kekasih Gelapku.....

As time goes by....i still tink bout him....eventhough i noe dat i have to move on....i do miss him at times....haiz....but im lucky to have didi by my side all the tym wen i nid him.... mungkin kerana terlalu rapat sehinggakan aku sendiri tertarik padanya....fall head over heel for him....he's very nice...he got dat bad boy look n dats wat i loikeeee!!!!!!! hahahahahahaha.....am i crazy or wat.....but seriously i thnx him for bein there....he's always der wen i nid to talk...he's sooo caring....i really like him....i ever sent him a msg wich d rply dat i received from him makes me soooooooo delighted n happy.....am i in love wif him????

Didi aka xxX DeeLaRoCa Xxx,thnx for being who u r n thnx for bein there for me....i miss u lots since dat day.....




Ku mencintaimu, lebih dari apapun
Meskipun tiada satu orang pun yang tahu
Ku mencintaimu, sedalam-dalam hatiku
Meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku...

Ku tahu ku takkan selalu ada untukmu
Disaat engkau merindukan diriku
Ku tahu ku takkan bisa memberikanmu waktu
Yang panjang dalam hidupku

Yakinlah bahwa engkau adalah cintaku
Yang ku cari selama ini dalam hidupku
Dan hanya padamu ku berikan sisa cintaku
Yang panjang dalam hidupku...

Ku mencintaimu, lebih dari apapun
Meskipun tiada satu orang pun yang tahu
Ku mencintaimu, sedalam-dalam hatiku
Meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku...

Ku mencintaimu, lebih dari apapun
Meskipun tiada satu orang pun yang tahu
Ku mencintaimu, sedalam-dalam hatiku
Meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku...

Ooh...

Ku mencintaimu, lebih dari apapun
Meskipun tiada satu orang pun yang tahu
Ku mencintaimu, sedalam-dalam hatiku
Meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku...

Biarkan Aku....

adakah in kepastian yg ku nanti???

kenapa kini masih belum terbukti???

adakah ini kepastian yg ku rindui???

kenapa kini pergi menghilang diri??

adakah aku hanya bermimpi disiang hari???

atau pun mengejar bayangan yang tak pasti???

biarkan aku terus bermimpi...

daripada harus bangun utk disakiti.....

biarkan aku berlari...

berlari mencapai pelangi...

ku tak ingin terus disakiti....

biarkan aku berdiri sendiri....

pergilah dikau bersama dia yg kau cintai....

tinggalkan aku sendirian disini...

jgn lah kau merayuku lagi....

kau tak pantas utk kucintai...

biar kini aku pergi...

pergi membawa duka dihatiku ini...

Sejarah Cinta Kita

Selamat tinggal sayang relakan ku pergi
Meninggalkan dirimu yang ku kasihi
Bukan niat ku sayang membuat kau terluka
Namun terpaksa

Sejarah cinta kita tak mungkin berulang
Walaupun kasih kita seluas lautan
Kita hanya merancang Tuhan menentukan
Tak kesampaian

Apa lagi hendak dikata
Memang itu lumrahnya dunia
Setiap yang bercinta pastikan merasa
Suka dan duka

Apa lagi hendak dipaksa
Jodoh kita telah pun tiada
Kita yang berkasih
Kita yang merintih
Hati tersiksa

Memang benar kata pujangga
Purnama indah usah dipuja
Kelak jiwa akan terluka
Meratap hiba

Ikutlah pilihan keluargamu
Yang menentukan jodoh buatmu
Diri ini usah ingat lagi
Biar ku pergi

WTH!!!!!

hei u....who r u to tell me wat i can do or wat i cant....tis is my blog ok....suka hati aku ah nak tulis aper pon....aku tak pakai jari kau per nak type...aku tau ko tak suker kan....tu ko nyer pasal k.aku sendiri ade letak pat aku nyer intro per lau tak suka pls refrain urself from reading further...

lau ko nak ckp tentang perasaan/feelings....aku rasa antara kiter aku yg paling rabak k....u got him rite...aku dpt ape???dpt segala tipu daya n kata2 manis dia???!!put urself in my shoe lah k...ape ko akan rasa lau ko matair dgn jantan,ni jantan main tymer,end up dia tunang pon tak blang ko.sakit tak hati kau???hancur tak hati kau???ko tak kene babtu ko tak merasa kan....

k lah....senang ckp ehk....aku tak ganggu hidop kau,kau jgn nak ganggu aku peh hidop k...get outta my life....coz i never invite u into my life...u came into d picture bcoz of dat beautiful liar played his game very well...so now aku rasa u can go on wif him....aku tkkn ganggu hidop korg k....so jgn ganggu hidop aku....thnx alot....appreciate dat.

~quoted frm a fren bloggie~
"ini blog sekadar untuk meluahkan perasaan. Kalau tak boley terima, maknanya, apa yang aku tulis nie, ada kebenarannya lah. Buat apa nak marah2? Hidup hanya sekali. Malaikat pun tanya dalam kubur sekali jugak. Kalau kurang senang, jangan lah baca. Tak diundang pun. Dah lah nak mencuri-cri baca isi hati orang, ada hati pulak tu nak mengamuk."

Jiwangzzz

lagu lagu jiwang mengusik kalbu.....Layankan je lah.....

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im moving on....am i??was so mad...tak sangka selama nie aku keen tipu hollow2 nie mcm...nape aku takle nak tangkap ehk...patut lah slama nie lau ajak dia kuar punya lah susah....nak kuar tym mlm jek...rupa2nyer tkut tunang tau...plabuto btol....bingit sak aku....dia senang jek ckp lupakan dia n carry on life w/o dia...dia ingat senang per...ni lah jantan...pat janji manis...gula pon kalah....biler sua...sanjung n puji melambong...tapi biler dah taknak...dia uat cam tissue jek...da buang ingus den throw away...NABEY ah...to me aku lau syg seseorg...its really hard for me to forget him seh....nape ehk...aku tak paham ah...dia mcm tak kisah gitu...he kip hurtin me over n over again....lau lah abg aku tau pasal nie....mati sak dia....tapi lau bleh aku tknk abg aku tau seh....

emi,y u have to be so evil??ko ni dah tak berperasaan lagik ker??slama nie ko nak ngan aku pasal aper seh???cinta...???harta????duit????kasih syg???atau.........................atau body?????im so damn pissed off wit ya....u makin use of me tok kesenangan ko....aku bnyk berkorban tok ko but hav u ever appreciate any???NOT!!!! not even once aku dgr ko luah kan rasa syg ko dgn secara ikhlas....impian yg slama nie aku angankan pon hancur musnah semuanya.....

mungkin ko bahagia dan gembira buat org mcm nie....semoga suatu hari ko akan dpt balasannyer.....

Mahligaimu Dari Airmataku

Izinkan diriku meluahkan rasa
Maafkanlah aku andai kau terasa
Biar kupaparkan apa yang terjadi
Moga engkau tak ulangi

Sungguh tak kusangka kau berpaling tadah
Setelah lamanya menjalinkan cinta
Dalam diam-diam kau sudah berpunya
Tanpa aku menyedari semuanya

Aku mendoakan agar kau bahagia
Bersama si dia insan yang kau suka
Percintaan kita tak sampai ke mana
Setakat di bibir saja sayang

Kau bina mahligai dari air mata
Yang jatuh berderai di wajah sepiku
Hancurnya hatiku bisa tak terkata
Terhumban rasa diriku

Oh aduhai ku masih ingati
Janji manis dan saat romantis
Kau pintaku supaya setia
Akhirnya kau yang berubah

Oh tuhanku tabahkan hatiku
Temukan ku dengan ketenangan
Jiwa ini dibelasah rindu tetapi apa dayaku

Kucuba pejam mata tapi tak terlena
Kerana ku masih teringat padamu
Begitu payahnya nak ku melupakan
Pernahkah engkau fikirkan oh sayang

Son Of A Gun!!!!!

tis is him wif his future wife!!!!!

i had enuff...all is while i've been toleratin wif ur fcukin attitude...semua kemahuan kau aku turutkan...tapi taik yg ko lemparkan kat aku...mmg dasar BINATANG!!

aku rasa binatang lagik mulia dr ko yg ade otak tapi bodoh tak tau pakai..ade hati tapi hati tak berperasaan...mana kau letak sifat kasih syg n sifat perikemanusiaan ko ehk???

nearly dua tahun aku dgn ko...mcm2 prangai ko aku endure.ape lagik yg ko nak dari aku???tk cukup ker slame nie yg aku bagi kat ko...u've been lying to me...n all tis while aku yg bodoh pasal percayakan ko...aku bodoh krn terlalu syg kan ko!slamer nie aku tertipu dgn ke peh kata2 manis...ko peh pujuk rayu....aku buta gaknyer atau sememangnyer ko dah buta kan mata n hati aku....

aku dpt msg frm my acct in Tagged.ni pompan ckp dia tunang ko n korg nak kawin.wen i go to her profile,mampos sak!!! i nearly cry!!!its true dat tis gal really am ur tunang...theres alot of ko peh pix ngan dia...patutlah slama nie ko ckp ngan aku jgn tgu ko alik frm australia lau ko jadi pegi...rupa2nyer ko ukan nak pi keje tapi gi honeymoon n celebrate ko peh wedding kat sana....patutlah slama nie ko slalu kasi 1001 mcm alasan kat aku ehk lau nak kuar...ko mmg besaar peh jantan suar! slama nie ko tipu aku cukup2!

mmg padan pon ngan ko peh muka sal ko accident sikit ari!aku pernah ckp ngan ko kan...lau ko menduakan aku,ko akan terima akibatnyer...mmg padan ngan muka ko...ehk suar! ko ingat ehk....aku ade keturunan yg ko ckp suka buat org kan...nie sumpah keturunan boyan daun tau!aku lau sumpah ko....tak slamat hidop ko nnt....tapi aku tknk sumpah menyumpah ko....aku trimer hakikatnyer yg ko bodoh2kan aku....

i am stupid to believe evryting dat u say.u'll get ur retribution for playing out wif all the gals heart.semoga tuhan balas segala kejahatan ko...aku tknk balas tapi aku nak tgk bape jauh ko tipu aku....ni aku baru dpt tau dr mulut ko peh tunang tau blom dr mulut ko lagik....aku nak tgk bape lama ko nak main nie game.....!!!!!! u can go on wif ur game F U C K E R!!!!!!!
JANTAN S I A L!!!!

luv is in the air!!!!!!!!!

i luvvvvvvvvvvvvv him soooooooooo much!!!!!!!!!
he's my one n only Ermie Suhermie...
my heart n soul...
the love of my life...
may ALLAH bless our relationship....
amin.....

Never Be Replaced..

Emi....
let d lyric do d talking honey....







Baby I love you , and I'll never let you go,
But if I have to, boy I think that you should know.
All the love we made , can never be erased.
And I promise you that you will never be replaced.

Baby I love you , and I'll never let you go,
But if I have to, boy I think that you should know.
The love we made , can never be erased.
And I promise you that you will never be replaced.

I love you,
Yes I do.
I'll be with you as long as you want me to.
Until, the end , of time.

From the day I met you
I knew we'll be together
And now I know I wanna be with you forever
I wanna marry you
And I wanna have your kids
Thinkin never compares to the feeling of your kisses,
I can say I'm truly happy to this day
You make me thank god that I live my life everyday
There's never been a doubt
In my mind
That I regret ever having you by my side
But if the day comes that
I have to let you go
I think there's something I should probably let you know
Enjoyed everyday that I spent with you
And I will miss you cuz I'm happy that I had you at all

Baby i love you , and I'll never let you go,
But if I have to, boy I think that you should know,
All the love we made , can never be erased ,
And I promise you that you will never be replaced

Baby i love you ,) and I'll never let you go ,
But if I have to, boy I think that you should know ,
The love we made , can never be erased ,
And I promise you that you will never be replaced

I love you,
Yes I do
I'll be with you
As long as you want me to
until , the end , of time

Mimpi Manis

seraut wajah tampan sangat mempesona
mimpiku, mimpi-mimpi manis
di balik pintu hati tersimpan rinduku
mimpiku, mimpi-mimpi manis
matamu bak panah asmara
bibirmu bak telaga madu, aduhai

* stop, engkau mencuri hatiku, hatiku

stop, engkau mencuri hatiku
mimpiku, mimpi-mimpi manis
stop, engkau mencuri hatiku, hatiku
stop, engkau mencuri hatiku

mimpiku, mimpi-mimpi manis
mimpiku, mimpi-mimpi manis
tutur bahasamu yg penuh kata-kata manja
bisik-bisik cinta menyentuh hatiku

tak mungkin dapat kulupakan
di dalam dunia hanyalah engkau yang ku cinta
engkaulah jiwaku, engkaulah nafasku
menjadi pendamping hidupku
bak serumpun sumpah janji berdua

bak sekata kita saling setia
bak serumpun sumpah janji berdua
bak sekata kita saling setia

repeat *

mimpiku, mimpi-mimpi manis
mimpiku, mimpi-mimpi manis

Y???

y must i kip sufferin after im happy for awhile??i do like him n comfortable wif him but i dunno y we r driftin apart...he kept silent...hmmm...since he kippin silent i tend to miss him...wen i saw him dat day we didnt talk at all...i dunno y...dunno wats d reason for him not talkin to me...wat have i done??im confused...

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Emi wants to cum back to me...for me,i really luv him n cant live w/o him...we have confess wif each other...i dunno y must he said dat i'll regret being wif him...i really luv him...but wat i find out really hurt me thou...but dats all in the past...if he's willing to change his behaviour n his flirty character...by all means im willing to accept him back in my life...i really luv him soo much dat i cried wen he called me again....was soo happy...i juz hope n pray dat he really meant wat he say n prove to me dat he can take care of me n luv me wholeheartedly....

p/s:the above mention story dat doesnt have any names is not bout emi....let his name be kept as my life secrets....

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Disaksikan sinaran bulan

Titisan hujan bagaikan harapanku
Tinggi langit tak mungkinkan tercapai
Tinggi gunung jadi penghalang
Hasratku oh sayang

( korus )
Lautan api
Sudah pun kurenangi
Kuukirkan namamu

Di hati yang jadi pujaanku

Gerbang kebahagian terpancar indah
Tapi hanya dengan sekelip mata
Sekeping hati yang sudah berpunya
Pergi dan takan kembali

Saat Hilang Cintamu......

Mulanya sukar untuk ku tempuh
Tapi terpaksa ku buat sejak kau tiada
Sendirian ku tahankan duka ku
Kepayahan memadam rindu
Selama ini aku meyakini
Kau bahagia dengan insan yang kau sanjungi
Namun ternyata salah dugaan ku
Dengar khabarmu yang pilu

Kini engkau menyesali
Dan ubati luka mu sendiri
Pengorbanan mu menjadi debu
Dipersenda kasih mu...
Pasti kau sudah rasai...
Keperihan hati yang ku tanggungi
Walau tidak pernah ku meminta
Kau di balas begitu ...
Semua ini telah ku harungi
Kepahitan rasa bukan untuk selamanya
Kesabaran menguatkan jiwa ku
Demi meyambung hidup ke akhir waktu

.................

dat mudder fuckin biatch bitch bout me in her blog again today.....

link---

http://anakmelayu.com/blogs/blog.php?id=79178

am in luv again!!!!wakakaka

oh gosh!!
izit true wat i juz found out...???
OMG

ok...tu jek impression aku after ku kol elly...aku ingatkan yg im dreaming but ternyata tidak coz aku now pat keje...heheheh....

to u...
i do feel comfortable wif u...n i do admit dat i like u...but for me to make d 1st move...no way ok...im a gal seh...tkkn gal nak make d 1st move kan...hehehehe....but who cares...i have to admit...i do like u...n i hope dat tings can work out between us,but we still hav to get to know each other more...coz i taknk nnt lau kiter rush into r'ship den we break up,we will lose d frenship seh....im really happy wen im wif u...only dat maybe im still afraid bout my past commitment wif my ex...n im afraid dat if i hope too much frm u i'll end up in d losing part...i dont want to get hurt again seh...i've suffer enuff in my luv life n i dont want another suffering...if tings work out between us...all i want is ur trust n TLC.i dont like to be control or controllin others...but for now...we juz go wif d flow...unless dat u r sure wif ur feelings den come forward n tell me...i'll be waiting for u n will accept u wif open arms...i luv u...

ceybah...aku mode feeling2 sak...heheeh...tis is wat i feel now...aku tau korg mesti ckp...dont rush into r'ship la gal...its too early...n watever lah...i noe k...im taking tings slowly...for now juz wait n see....

Im Sorry,GoodBye.......

Sebelum bertemu denganmu hidupku bahagia
Semenjak bertemu denganmu ku makin bahagia
Semakin lama aku semakin tahu tentang engkau
Sedikit kecewa ternyata engkau tak baik

Pertama-tama semua manis yg engkau berikan
Membuat aku merasakan cinta sebenarnya
Semakin hari semakin terungkap yg sesungguhnya
Ku makin kecewa ternyata kau penuh dusta

(Korus)
Maafkan ku harus pergi
Ku tak suka dengan ini
Aku tak bodoh
Seperti kekasihmu yang lain

Terima kasih oh Tuhan
Kau tunjukkan siapa dia
Maaf kita putus
So thank you so much
I’m sorry, goodbye

Seribu cara kau membuaiku dengan puitis
Maybe kau lupa bahwa aku pun juga manusia
Yang punya mata, punya hati, dan perasaan
Maaf aku pergi dan takkan untukmu lagi



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tis song really suit those who ever hurt ma feeling...
mukakakakak.....im more happy now...w/o u all by my side...
tahnx u sooooooo much!
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thnx 4 luvin me....

tis is dedicated to him...whom now i treat as a bro n a gd fren.....

u came into my life soon after i get to noe evry1 in the grp....u r kindda jiwa kwn...its good...but wen u ask me to be ur someone...im shocked...its like u dont even know me inside out den u want to be wif me....i admit dat i do like u but to be wif u dat tym its still too early...i did ask u to wait if u really luv me...u said u will.wen i join in d 2nd outing to dat ghosthunting trip i admit dat i been kindda moody rite after d trip...im sory dat u pon terkene tempias my sikap yg tgh moody dat tym...den i noe dat u were angry as u tros tak layan i...i kindda feel guilty but u noe dat luv cant be force kan...wen came to dat person bday...i was shocked dat u kip going here n dere wif her...im ok wif it coz its ur life...u r d one who choose it...he ever ask wether im jealous bout u n her or not...seriously im not but in my mind i was like thinking...sekejapnyer cinta u da beralih arah...???WTH seh...but im ok wif it coz i noe dat maybe u found sum1...its fine wif me...as i never promise u anyting....

den once again the prob arise....after u read my blog bout him...it seems dat u kindda jealous wat happen betwin us...

u kip on asking me y its hard for me to accept u rite...
my ans will be....its not hard but its juz dat its tooooo early for us to get committed...get to noe each other first my darl b4 u wanna spend ur days wif sum1 whom u r proud to call GF!!!

u tell me dat u only luv me rite....
my ans...its kindda bullshit u noe dat!if u only luv me u wont be wif her...

now my advise to u is dat.....
since u n her r together....dont play out wif her feelings...she luvs u my dear...treat her nicely....since u ade tu niat nak get married to her...den learn to be a good hubby n a good daddy....i wish u all the best...seeing u happy wif her will make me happy too....thanx for luvin me my dear...


===++DISCLAIMER++===
to those who dont really noe wats happening betwin me and tis person mention in here...juz ignore it ok.. its all in d past...for now we r only fren..im sory if tis blog cause hatred or watever shitty feelings im sory ok...juz pouring out wat is being kept in my heart...wa da tknk simpan masaalah lagik lah....fed up tau...fening!!!!!

WTH

me being vain

y its bout her again???

pompan nie kan tak abis2 kasi masaalah lah....aku tak tau nak ckp ape kat dia seh....aku pon taknak ckp ngan dia lagik...kiter semua dah pangkah dia....n aku rasa bdk2 lain pon dah pangkah dia...dia da drop nick SyaitAM tu dah lah....ni nak back up diri sendirik akai nick syaitAM...ape jek...dia tak sedar ker yg dia tu dah di pulaukan oleh bdk2 syaitam??nmpk sah ni pompan tak sedar dirik ah...wa tak tau nak ckp ape agik...dia tk abis2 nak kasi masaalah jek....now pat am nga hangat ade org buat blog pasal dia...dahtu babitkan syaitam juz bcoz dektu pon dr syaitam...ape nie???aku tak paham ah org2 nie semua...selidik dulu sebelum bersuare....PAHAM????!!!!

nari hari wa bingit...

~untitled~

y it happen wen u really luv sum1 truly....happen to drop by his profile in tagged,wat he said in his profile i dont noe whom it were meant for...dont really tink its abt me...coz i noe dat he dont luv me n wont really care bout me...below is wat he said in his profile...i quote sum of it...

"Helmi Boi say
Cinta itu aneh, sukar ditafsirkan.datangnya bukan dari paksaan, perginya pula tanpa kerelaan. Mungkin benar tatkalakita kehilangan barulah kita menyedari,mungkin benar saat kita terluka barulah kita mengerti,mungkin benar bila kita rasa rindu yang sangat dalam, barulah kita sedari berapa besar makna dan erti seseorang bagi kita. Sayang, mengertilah hati ku ini yang terluka , nantikan ku di pintu syurga, hanya airmata ......menjadi teman hidup ku "

"Aku dan dia
Kini semuanye berakhir tanpa kata-kata, hanya kenangan aku dan dia bermain di benak fikiranku.Entah mengapa ku masih merindui dah menyayangi nya, munkin kerana cinta yang amat dalam. Tapi dikau tak mengerti isi hati ku. Dikau pergi mementingkan segala yang ada di sekelilingmu, tanpa hiraukan perasaan dan pengorbananku selama ini. Hanya airmata yang menjadi teman setia hidupku ... "

if it were really meant for me im willing to get back to him...but too bad it wasnt for me...eventhou he dont say...i knew it....juz hope dat d girl dat he meant in tis quote comes back to him...he really luv u...im returning him to u...

n to helmi/emi....i juz hope dat u will be happy wif whoever u choose to be wif...i sacrifice alot for u...but u have neve appreciate me...be happy...coz by seeing u happy it would make me happy too...may ur life is blessed..

Apa Artinya Cinta????

Tiba-tiba engkau ada
Kemudian engkau hadir
Laksana kerdil ku memeluk
Lihat aku lebih dalam

Di matamu ku melihat
Ada cinta yang tersirat
Sirami hati merebak

Barangkali aku salah
Ku terdiam bukan bisu
Tahu engkau besar malu
Tutupi rasa gelisah

Biar saja waktu nanti
Yang menikmati kisah ini
Bersamamu aku senang

Belum juga kah kau menyadarinya
Akulah yang pantas untuk kau cintai
Di bawah langit biru aku bersumpah
Diriku tanpamu apa artinya cinta

cinta ini sudah menelan waktuku
Siang malam hanya untuk pikirkan engkau
Sejuta kali aku berani bersumpah
Diriku tanpamu apa artinya cinta

Biar saja waktu nanti
Yang menikmati kisah ini
Bersamamu aku senang

Belum juga kah kau menyadarinya
Akulah yang pantas untuk kau cintai
Di bawah langit biru aku bersumpah
Diriku tanpamu apa artinya cinta

My Workpiece

im sooooo damn bored at werk....tis is wat i do wif all my pix....hahahaha....boring tahap maksimum seh.....haiz.....tgk lah pix aku nie ehk....wat i c is dat muka aku nie cam berubah ubah ah....got any comments or not???wa pelik ah tgk muka wa sendirik....but some jek lah yg lain...ade yg same ajer...lu org comments skit...hehehehe.....

adios amigos...
aku berambos...

moving on...???

tings have been goin on very smooth....im moving on...he's happy now wif his new found love(or shld i say target)...as for me...im moving on....cant u see???of cos u cant...as u can only read it....hehehehehe.......


been goin out too frequent now....hahaha...it so not me ok to go out nearly evryday....for now i prefer to be out rather den sit at home n tink bout all d stupid probs dat evolve arnd me....kindda suck u noe....for now i dont really care...i go out wif evry1 n wif whoever i want....


lately i heard tounges wagging bout me....rumours have been spread dat i got somting on wif diddy....WTF seh...doesnt mean tat we took pix together means dat we r bf/gf rite???all these ppl got nutin to do izzit??!! first it was him n now diddy...next who is goin to be the target???!!! cant be bothered wif u ppl man...WTH!!! im single wat...i can go out wif whoever i wish to go out wif ok....i dont ask u for money to go out rite???!!! dont really care bout tis gossip....to hell wif it....cant be bothered coz i cant close ppls mouth,once u r tired wif gossippin...den u'll stop....so go on n be a gossip monger n spread stories ok??! i cant be bother wif ya.

for those cuzin of mine dat noe wat happen to me lately....im tellin u ppl dat im moving on....im starting life afresh...turnin over a new leaf can be kindda hard but im changing for good....dont ya ppl worry ok??n plssss.....dont ever matchmake me wif anyone ok?im not interested at d moment...heheheheh.....let me find d love of my life....haiz....tho its kindda hard... *winks*

time check:7:28pm
im @ werk da dey....
got work to do...
adios...

Date wif Diddy Sanchez(hahahah)

mit up wif diddy after he finish werk....kindda weird rite???(i noe)but ok lah....at least i dont tink much bout my prob wen go out wif him....ketawe all d way seh....dia biasa ah ngan lawak bodoh dia n muka slamber dia....i was away frm all prob for awhile....but wen i reach werk...zappp....al the prob dtg alik seh.....we mit up at City Hall...diddy biasa lmbt....bingit jek aku kene tgu....after dat we go ps den buy sumting to eat n lepak kat istana park...korg jgn pikir lain k...kiter lepak tmpt open...ukan tmpt sunyi....here are some pix taken by me....jgn terkejutsz k....wa ngan diddy takde paper...we r JUST FRIEND!!!!



isap rokok ngan muka2 seh...



OMG....im crushed!!!



purrrfect!!!



ware r u luking at diddy????





k korg njoy lah ehk....asal jgn uat gosip sua....aku ngan dia tkde paper....lau satu AM tau...mampos aku....kecoh......k lah....gtg.....will post more if im not lazy...heheheh....adios amigos.....

pls get outta ma lyf....

seandainya dpt ku putarkan masa....akan ku hentikan nye dr bergerak....ku ingin berada dlm waktu itu saja....alangkah bahagia nya aku di saat itu....mungkin aku buta...atau kurang pernilaian...sesungguhnya cinta itu buta dan boleh membutakn org yg bercinta.....


pertama kali ku berjumpa dgn nya...mata bertentang mata(hehehehe....da mcm citer industan plak)aku tak tau knaper aku feel tu mcm ah...but i juz ignore dat feeling....den thru d upcuming meet up too i feel dat way but i juz ignore dat feeling....until to the mit up lately for his bday....i dunno y...he's so weird dat day....maybe he had drink too much or....i dunno....after the cake cutting @ mamak...we went for karaoke @ party world...having so much fun...at bout 4 after karaoke,kiter decide to go makan at mamak again....me and him walk 1st...we didnt wait for d others....wen we walk past heeran...i did ask him is he ok??den he say..."if im not ok naper u taknk hold my hand??" i was like...huh...ok juz hold hands nutin wrong per....den we walk as we talk...suddenly he came up the topic bout us...he say dat he noes dat i like him since d 1st mit up...i was like shock seh....den he ask me to confess....k fine...for the very 1st tym in my life aku confess kat sum1 yg aku tol2 suker kat dia...den he ask y him....i juz say dat "i juz like u d way u r...i dont care of ur status and age...since u ask me to confess den i've said my side of story...but dont u worry...i wont force u in this...." den i ask him to confess anyting dat he wanna say....he say "i oso like u but giv me sumtime coz i nid to settle lots of probs..." den d ting dat i dont xpect to happen is dat...he kish me on my lips....i was like....WTF sia.....giler per dekni....aku da mcm nak ketawa pon ade but tgk muka dia serious ku pon tak jadik nak ketawa....at 1st i was happy but in a split second aku change akunyer mind seh....i tink back...dgn gal lain dia leh kish n pelok sana sini....ape lagik ngan aku nie yg jauh lebih muda dr dia....haiz....kindda weird dat nite but im happy....wen @ mamak...he was like nak blang evrybody per...aku da tkut org spot seh...but dia sardin jek....so aku pon layankan je lah coz aku tot da mabuk....so d next day wen aku online...i ask him dia he noes wat he say last nyte....he juz say dat "im sory but let leave it to time n fate..."so i was like ok lah since ko da ckp gitu aku ok jek ah.....


after dat incident aku admit kiter makin rapat....n i kindda feel jeles biler dia selit pat pompan lain....but after d incident pat chalet aku....i say i promise myself to ignore him n juz treat him as a bro jek....

tym kat chalet aku...tat is wen i feel totally upset sak....dia menyelit pat si brand esbok tu....menyirap darah aku....nasib baik tym dorg go 7-11 aku tak ikot...coz ayie dtg...ku citer pat ayie den aku plak kene marah...pe seh....haiz....from now on ku rasa ku tkkn get committed easily....aku tak pernah rasa upset terok nie mcm....im moving on now....im happy for him to found a new target....let him be...

wat goes arnd cums arnd.....

Whine Up!!!

Kat Deluna-Whine Up

Sampai ku menutup mata.......

embun di pagi buta
menebarkan bau basah
detik demi detik ku hitung
inikah saat ku pergi

oh Tuhan ku cinta dia
berikanlah aku hidup
takkan ku sakiti dia
hukum aku bila terjadi

reff: aku tak mudah mencintai
aku tak mudah mengaku ku cinta
aku tak mudah mengatakan
aku jatuh cinta

senandungku hanya untuk cinta
tirakatku hanya untuk engkau
tiada dusta sumpah ku cinta
sampai ku menutup mata
cintaku sampai ku menutup mata

oh Tuhan ku cinta dia
berikanlah aku hidup
takkan ku sakiti dia
hukum aku bila terjadi

Iz Tis Called Fate???

sesungguhnya cinta itu aneh....mengapa harus ku bercinta lagi....mengapa ku jatuh cinta lagi....???dan mengapa dia???

saat ku bersamanya amat singkat....saat ku mengenalinya juga begitu...tapi mengapa aku ade parasaan padanya....i juz hate myself...i can easily fall in luv but cant easily forget a person dat i luv.....shit seh.....bingit pon ade.....but i juz cant stop thinkin bout him....he is a very nice person...eventhough our age gap is diff....feels like he's d one dat i like....mungkin blom takdir aku nak dpt dia kot...but seriously i was sooooooooo happy seh....smlm i feel like dunia nie aku yg punya...lau bleh aku cam tknk alik jek....hehehehehe....but afteall it takes time to win his heart....haiz....may fate brot us together one day.....amin.....

my belated bday gifts

thnx to aunt hazel n kak ida for tis gift...its for my belated 21st bday...thnx alot...luv tis watch....

Beautiful Girl

Sean Kingston Vid

my brooch werkz again....

SyaitAM

Adakah ini cintaku???

hadir mu tak pernah ku duga....kau dtg mengisi kekosongan hatiku saat si dia pergi dari hidup ku...saat ku dgnmu bagai mimpi indah yg jarang hadir...ku mula menyukai mu setelah kau ungkapkan kata cinta padaku...mmg...mungkin org lain akan mengatakan yg aku gila...tapi ini lah kenyataan nya....


saat ku mula menyintaimu...kau pergi kerana tugas...ku merindui mu selalu...tiap mlm kenangan indah kita muncul dlm tidurku....aku binggung...adakah ini cinta...??


sebelum kau pergi...pertengkaran terjadi antara kita...angkara sahabatku dan sahabatmu...punca nya juga tidakku mengerti...kau diam lalu berlalu pergi....


mengapa ini terjadi saat aku mula menyayangi dirimu...ku terdiam dan terpaku....adaka ini takdirku...aku pasrah...


pergimu dari sisiku tak ku sesali...mungkin ini takdir yg harus ku terima...hanya hingga kini ku tak mampu utk meghilangkan mu dari ingatan ku...


oh tuhan...sesungguhnya ku amat menyintai dirinya....hanya ku pinta kebahagiaan selalu disampingnya....ku relakan ia pergi walau hatiku tarluka......

my brooch work

here are some of the design...will upload more...do enquire more if u like it...

tings are gettin betta

tings are gettin betta for now...alhamdulillah...got a new hobby now dat is makin brooch...learn it from kak em in one of her brooch workshop...its easy to do but nid a lot of kesabaran...manage to do a few design n now doin summore...maybe will pass some to kak em for her upcoming event @ radin mass cc...n now tings dat are not gettin betta is my luv life.its kindda complicated ah now...wen i tend to be alone...those who i really luv last time came back n declarin...hmmm...hav a hard tym choosin the rite one...will tell more in upcoming bloggie...

duh!!!

lately been bz to upload post for bloggie....seems at work once i enter blogger...the server tend to be slow.but its ok...lately ting at home is abit tensed...evrybody is so stressful...ayah is going overseas for 3mth....sedih kan...i never terpisah from ayah seh but only for once jek tym ayah n mummy go haji...sedangkan sebulan je dorg tglkan me,me da demam mcm nak rak...ari2 demam..mlm tido asik nangis...den tis tym ayah go for 3mths,den blom tentu ari raye ayah dpt alik seh...n for the very first tym we raya w/o ayah...n dont tink we will celebrate coz mummy say the raya wont be meaningful w/o ayah...haiz...dalah tis year raya aku single agik...den ayah plak tkde...boring seh...nasib baik ayah tak jadik pegi b4 my bday...but he will be goin on the 18july...n its like only in few days time...been countin d days seh...rasa mcm sedih gitu...haiz...u can say watever u wanna say lah...im juz ayah n mummy's girl...maybe coz im the only girl in the family n dat is y im more close to mummy and ayah....evryday ayah would send me to work...if now ayah pegi...who will send me to work???who will wait for me if i went home late...who will cook for me if mummy's not goin to cook...haiz...ayah...im gonna miss u so much...

TakKu Duga

TakKu Duga-Misha omar & Saiful(MI)

Tak pernah ku duga satu saatjatuh cinta
Pada saat suramku menyapa di hatiku
Mungkinkah masih ada, oh cinta indah buatku
Sedangkan sepi menemaniku

Buanglah sepimu menjadi sekuntum rindu
Aku akan mengisi ruang hatimu kasih
Cinta ini buatmu
Hati ini buatmu
Di sini ada cinta buatmu

Ku cinta kamu, ku sayang kamu
Untuk selama-lamanya di hatiku

Menyayangimu... mencintaimu
Benarkah ini kasih
Kebahagiaan kita miliki
Oh Oh

Pintaku padamu jujurlah oh ke akhirnya
Agar asmara kekal abadi dalam hati
Kekasih ku berjanji
Menemanimu nanti
Demi cinta indah ini kasih

Aku hanya mampu berdoa
Takdir ini buat kita
Menuju bahagia
Kita miliki cinta

Kekasih ku berjanji
Menemanimu nanti
Demi cinta indah ini kasih

Im Soooo ANGRY!!!!!!!!

Argh!!!!! im so angry today....how could a guy wear a gal sandal???

tis afternoon as i was ironing my clothes to go to work,i was thinkin of wearing my havaianas sandal as its been very long since i last wear it...so i stop ironing awhile and went to take out my sandal from the shoe rack inside my room to put outside...i was so shock to find out dat the sandal was nowhere to be seen...the 1st thot dat comes to my mind is ***S!!!! i knew dat he will take it...he as usual w/o askin permission juz take n use it....i was so angry dat i call his brother ***I and tell him to return my sandal at dat moment...n ***i say dat there already on their way to kompang...i was so angry dat i msg ***I n tell him "Lau abg ko tak mampu,jgn nak bergaya dgn barang org" and he replied "ehk..kau ingat aku heran dgn sandal ko..aku leh antar alik ah..ezlink yg aku kasi kau pinjam kasi aku alik..tak mampu beli jgn nak pinjam org.." wat d hack siak!!! if bcoz of a no value n spoilt ezlink dat he found and he lent me...i can give him back a new one lah with value lagik lah....ape sajer jek....n we start exchanging smses n wat makes me angry is dat he involve sum of our family matters dat involve his father...sememangnyer aku tak heran duit bapak ko ah...bapak ko sendiri yg nak tolong kluarga aku...lau bapak ko tk tolong,family aku bleh mintak tolong org lain lah....eeeee!!!!!GERAMnyer aku!!!! bukan kiter tak bayar balik duit bapak ko lah!!! SIAL nyer budak...ARGH!!!!!! aku dapat ko aku cincang kasi mampos ah....ko mmg besar nyer kurang ajar ah...slama nie aku diam..ko pijak kepala aku ehk...dulu bleh ah kluarga aku maafkan ko pasal ko curik hp kakak aku but now,tiada maaf bagimu ah!!!!aku benci tgk muka ko!!!dalah dudok umah org free...dahtu buat umah org mcm hotel...ko tk blaja akhlaq per...sia2 jer mak ko anta ko gi blaja ugama ah...at least aku tau tata tertib bila ade pat umah org!!!eeee....geram aku ngan ko!!! mmg aku at first tknk besar2kan perkara nie tapi fikir2 balik aku tkle kasi chance ngan ko agik ah...ko da melampau!ko tengking mak aku pat tepon tadi,ko ingat mak aku tu adik2 ko per!!!!!lau abg aku tau mampus ko kene blasah ah...lau bapak ko tkle ajar ko,bapak aku bleh ajar ko...ko jgn ingat ko tu da besar lah...step bdk jam konon,...aku kasi jam dinding aru ko tau!geram aku ngan ko...lau tk ingat kan yg kakak ko nak alik tk lama lagik...nak aje aku buang ko as sdare aku...aku kesian ah kat mak bapak ko...pasal ko dia nak kene ganti aku yg baru...ko mmg tkde otak nyer org ah...aku tak tau otak ko letak kat ane ah...aku btol2 kesian kan parents ko ah.

Duh!!

lately i've been uploading few songs dat keep playing in my mind n dats really meaningful to me n my life...keep humming the song even at work...hmmm...maybe dats song keep playing in my mind as i tink got lots of probs and tis song keeps playing either on radio or my mp3...so i kip humming d song over and over again....hehehehe....so do enjoy me uploading all tis song lyrics aitez....

Atas Nama Cinta

Atas Nama Cinta
by Rossa


aku wanita yang punya cinta dihati
ada diriku dan dirinya dalam hidupku
mengapa terlambat cintamu t'lah termiliki
sedang diriku dengan dia tak begitu cinta

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My All....

My All
Written by M. Carey and W. Afanasieff

I am thinking of you
In my sleepless solitude tonight
If it's wrong to love you
Then my heart just won't let me be right
'Cause I've drowned in you
And I won't pull through
Without you by my side


I'd give my all to have
Just one more night with you
I'd risk my life to feel
Your body next to mine
'Cause I can't go on
Living in the memory of our song
I'd give my all for your love tonight


Baby can you feel me
Imagining I'm looking in your eyes
I can see you clearly
Vividly emblazoned in my mind
And yet you're so far
Like a distant star
I'm wishing on tonight


I'd give my all to have
Just one more night with you
I'd risk my life to feel
Your body next to mine
'Cause I can't go on
Living in the memory of our song
I'd give my all for your love tonight


I'd give my all to have
Just one more night with you
I'd risk my life to feel
Your body next to mine
'Cause I can't go on
Living in the memory of our song
I'd give my all for your love tonight
I'd give my all for your love
Tonight

What Does Your Name Means About You?

What Does Your Name Means About You?
A : you like to drink
B : you like people
C : you are really silly
D : one in a million
E : great in bed
F : you are dead sexy
G : you never let people tell you what to do
H : you have a very good personality, looks and a sexy good kissers
I : great in bed
J : people adore you
K : you're wild and crazy
L : unbelievably great in bed
M : great in bed
N : you like to drink a LOT
O : awesome kisser
P : you are popular with all types of people
Q : you are hypocrite
R : fucking crazy (in a fun way)
S : easy to fall in love with
T : you're loyal to those who loves you
U : you're really silly
V : you are not judgemental
W : you are very broad minded
X : you never let people tell you what to do
Y : best boy/girl friend anyone can ask for
Z : always ready



as for my name:-

S : easy to fall in love with
I : great in bed
T : you're loyal to those who loves you
I : great in bed

N : you like to drink a LOT
O : awesome kisser
R : fucking crazy (in a fun way)
H : you have a very good personality, looks and a sexy good kissers
A : you like to drink
N : you like to drink a LOT
A : you like to drink
H : you have a very good personality, looks and a sexy good kissers

no wonder perutku kembung.....like to drink alot....hehehehehe

hate u guyz for come into my life again!!!!!

Arghhhhhh!!!!!!!!! life can be suck at tyms!!!! y???? y wen i was trying to stick to 1 guy the others from my past comes along????!!!!! really hate seh....wen im single u all like dont care bout me but now wen im attached...evryday u msg me...all the mushy2 msges cumes in....im so piss!!!! dont really understand u guyz ah....wen i really nid u,u dumped me as u wish but wen i dont nid u,u come n begging me....wat the hack sia!!!!! seriously now i wanna be serious..no more FLINGS,SCANDALISM,or watever shit la....juz wanna stick to him only,eventhough he dont seems to really care bout me,i still luv him alot....wont leave him unless i see wif my own eyes the evidence dat he flirt around....dont really care wat u guys wanna say...i've made a mistakes once n i dont wanna repeat it again....enough is enough!!i wont repeat my mistakes....i truly luv him n wont leave him.....hope dat he understands my feelings n wont play out my heart....argh!!!!he too can be sickening at tym....he really irritate me wif all his ex gfs pix...n all the gals dat wanna get to know him and all the shit lah dat can make me jealous...im getting angry wif him....heheheheheh.........

topsy turvey days....

Lately tings been so Topsy turvey for me since i change my work....all tat i know is work,home and sleep...my appetite oso becoming worse...sometimes tgk mkn pon tak lalu...hmmmm....all i nid iz juz 1 gd sleep to relax my body n mind....mummy has been nag n nag coz i sleep alot...heheheheh.....my love life oso becoming slack...its like wenever he msg den i reply...lau tk me pon jarang carik....y ehk???hmmm....maybe becoz now i juz go wif the flow....hmmm....ntah lah....fo now i only nid to concentrate on my work ah...nak simpan duit buy my own car/bike ah.....i wanna ubah cara hidop my family....nak senangkan mummy and ayah...da malas nak pikir psl bf n kawin...lagipon...im still YOUNG....hehehehehehe.....for now my top priority is mummy and ayah....wanna be a gd gerl and a daughter whom my parents can depends on....workin really hard for them...even wen im typing tis blog oso im still at work....finish tomorrow morning.....haiz...mata pon da kelat...gotta do my work...dats all for now...hehehehe....but lau ade yg nak ditulis agik jap lagik....akan ku blogkan disini....

my 1st day at werk

date:4th Jun 2007
day:Monday
time:9am-6pm

Yahoo!!!! today is my first day at work...dress in black shirt and tudung with skirt,i make my way to my new workplace dat is @ Haw Par Glass Tower @ Clemenceau Ave.i was so happy coz it was a perm job....heheheehe......due to my anxiousness i arrived at d office 15 min early...hehehehe....after meeting Kay n sign the contract,i was pass over to aunt Hazel.i took over her buddy's workstation.i got to know alot of new people...some are weirdo...some are the Filipinos dat we seldom talk to,aunt azizah who said dat i look like her daughter n keep calling me anakku,n there was athirah who is so young n pweety+sweet looking gurl whom I'll be working with after my training days....for 1st day i don't do much tings la....only plan my roster,getttin to know all the people n places in d office....seems like d place is a bit creepy...but OK la...wat to do....as i will always be on nite shift,i have to bear with it...hehehe...dats all for the 1st day....will update again....

Our Love Ones Final Journey

on friday,1st of jun 2007 is d day where by Obek Mus leave all of us....she pass away @ SGH...i was so sad coz eventhough i was there at SGH,i can see she pass on her last breath....i was so angry as i fall asleep after taking panadols....haiz....maybe obek juz want all her children to be by her side....we all redha as she moves on to rahmatullah,rather den she's here bear all the pains...can bear to see her suffer in receiving all the treatment for her sickness....on dat particular day,arnd 12plus...the nurse incharge say dat her BP is very low olreadi so we were told to be prepared for the worst...i told mum dat i wanna stay @ hospital eventhou i start my new job tomorrow morning....i called up my aunt to ask her to tell my hr admin dat i can only start on mon.....after reading yassin,nurse siti comes in to take obek's BP,she try hard not to show her shock face...but after trying for 3tyms,it shows dat either obek got no BP or her BP is very2 low....i was so sad to hear dat....so we have to be prepared....hr by hr evrybody start to return home...left @ hospital was only obek's children,me,abg aim and abg yazmi....wen obek pass away only her children was by her side....alhamdulillah...her jenazah was buried d same day @ 10+.....may Allah bless her soul n may her be place together wif all d solehin....AMIN.......

goin wif d flow

for noe me goin wif d flow wif HIM...me kekadang naik boring u know...da malas ah...lets juz go wif d flow...lau dia msg i reply...kekadang me pon carik dia gak...windu lah...

tiring day...

its been so tiring tis few days...been goin to and fro frm hospital n home den to werk...hope obek will get better soon...really worried bout her conditions...rite now goin to the hospital again but cant go home late as im starting on my new job tomorrow...haiz...do pray her her speedy recovery...may god bless her.....

I Got D Job

yezza....im leaving tis company soon....as i got a better job offer @ Tele-Centre.there is a basic pay there rather den my place now....hope me can kekal work in d new company....wish me luckz!!!!

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y is he doing all tis???

y must u msg me again???since u wanna break up,let me heal all the pain by myself...i cant bear to hear ur voice again...but i juz wanna know the reason for all this...i cried alot for u...i juz cant let u go...i dont understand y u did all tis...i juz dont understand y i cant stop luvin u eventhou u broke my heart....stop show to me dat u care after u broke my heart...if u really luv me u wont do tis...i really hate u...u r juz as the same as all those bunch of liars!!!!! I HATE U,I HATE U,I HATE U,I HATE U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the interview

juz went for the interview juz now....its seems dat KAY was in a hurry...the interview lasted bout 1/2hr...she ask bout evryting,luckily im prepared for all this nonsense question...hehehe...will hav to wait for their calls...its either she told aunt hazel or she call me herself....hope to get this job....

he msg me!!!

argh!!!!!finally he msg me!!!!i do still luv him k....he msg me tis morning....i was so touched...i tot he hate me....but hmmm....u will never noe wats happening later!!!!!

he said it...

y heaven can be so cruel to me???he has said it...he say dat he cant be wif me...he's asking for a break up...im lost rite now...i dont understand y he do tis to me??wat have i done to him??i really luv him alot..y must he do tis...im really heartbroken rite now...i cant believe dat he's leaving me...i cant live w/o him...i really cant...i luv him alot...emi,y must u said all this???i luv u alot...is tis wat i get for loving u so much...???i.....

Stress To The Core!!!

the whole night been thinking bout the job offer dat i received from aunt hazel...dunno wether shld i take it or not...i try to ask his opinion but he only say dat he's not sure....really stress up wif him...he has ignore me now...wat shld i do...im so sad dat he do dis...cant even get his opinion bout d job...but i have to made up my mind...i tink i will take up tat offer...workin in my company currently suck n stressfull...my memory become worse...tend to be forgetful...haiz....sumtimes can go insane juz by luking at all the stuff dat i nid to update....argh!!!! but i really pity the person dat gonna take over my work...hehehehe....really pity dat person actually....hehehehe.....but who cares...since nobody ever care bout me n my job so why shl i care bout dat person....to hell wif it...hahahaha.....im getting mad now....my workload keep increasing!!!!!!

am i being paranoid???

lately...me keep thinking wat gonna happen between me and him...coz lately i've been feeling insecured..n now he has stop calling me...im not sure wats the reason...even wen i call or msg him,he never reply me...im lost now...dunno wat shld i do???am i too depending on him???i luv him alot...im not sure wat gonna happen to me if we were to broke off???i really cant live w/o him...maybe u would tink tat im crazy or wat but deep inside me nobody knows my luv for him...i cant afford to lose him again...but y he's doin dis to me???y cant he tell me anyting if i did sumting wrong???im really hurt dat he do tis to me...y must all tis tings happen wen i really luv sum1??im so heartbroken...even if he has another girl n dat girl can make him happy juz tell me coz im willing to let him go if he feel happy wif dat girl...juz want him to be happy.im willing to sacrifise my luv for him if dat gerl can make him happy eventhough deep inside me im not willing to let him go....

His Definations Of LOVE

Love(by emi)
Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don't know how to replenish its source. It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of witherings, of tarnishings.
Where there is great love, there are always miracles.
Nothing in life is to be feared. It is only to be understood.

He's the ONE...the luv of my life....

its been abt 3mths me and him are back together...i feel so happy when ever im wif him...eventhou for a short while i still feel happy...lately we had a big fight but im giving in to him as im the one who started it....after all the sorry tingy...i confront him and pour out evryting tat i hav been keeping in my heart....he was so shocked to hear all dat i said...he said dat all tis while i look happy but deep inside me he never know.....now.....he has change for the better...he dont neglect me anymore...we always mit up even for a short while like he fetch me frm werk n send me home...im so contented....he has been showin all his care and concern to me...so happy dat he change...he's not the same old emi dat always got angry bout small2 tingy....all he did really pleased me...now dat i realize dat i cant live w/o him...he's the one dat i luv...may ALLAH blessed my relationship wif him....n oso my parents bless our relationship...im juz waiting for the rite tym to bring him home...hhehehehe....

new to this

hi...im currently new to tis...im doin sum upgrading here...do cum back for more aitez....thnx alot....

the luv of my life....

its been quite sometime i've been thinkin bout tis...im not sure whether i've made the rite choice or not...i ever leave him once,as im not sure wat is his feelings for me as he never say it to me...at tat tym..i really luv him alot but afraid to get rejected,i leave him w/o confess my feeling for him...maybe im stupid at dat tym...den few mths after i left him,i keep lookin for him as we lost each others contact num...but wen i saw him at my cuzins wedding takin pix beside a gurl,i was so angry n hurt...few wks after d wedding,i saw him on msn n wen he ask bout my status i juz say dat im attached eventhough at tat tym im single...i feel so hurt as i really luv him but i dint wanna confess.but last mths,he called me up after so long i never hear his voice,feel like crying wen he confess to me dat he has luv me eversince we r juz a fren n b4 i left him...i was so shocked at 1st but wen the thought of him and dat girl at d wedding i ask him to declare his relationship wif dat girl...wat make me feel dat im stupid is dat girl is his fren gf.how stupid am i to jump into conclusion n judge him as a playa...but after all his luv has conquer my heart n i pray to ALLAH,dat he will be the last one...really luv him alot...n guess wat...me too have confess to him...but rite now we r still adjusting our tym due to his hectic schedule...he always bz....hmmm....dunno bz with wat...but on weekends surely miss him lots as he went wif his family to their house at jb....hmm...guess i hav to be more give in to him...