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knapa lah susah sngt aku nak lupakan dia??? Y!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im so piss off with myself....tak faham ah aku....


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♥ Oh Teganya.... ♥

Akhirnya kau pun pergi
Biarkan ku disini
Ternyata kau juga tak punya hati
Pedih hati tak terperi
Sedih kutelan sendiri
Mau marah tapinya sama siapa?

Kini aku disini
Cuma sendiri
Tiada yang mencari
Sampai hati
Sampai begini
Kau tak peduli
Oh… teganya


Apakah salah dan dosaku
Mengapa s’mua tinggalkan ku
Mau marah tapinya sama siapa?


Kini aku disini
Cuma sendiri
Tiada yang mencari
Sampai hati
Sampai begini
Kau tak peduli
Oh… teganya


Pedih ku tak terbendung
Langit ku mendung tiada berujung
K’mana berlindung

Sekarang engkau pun pergi
K’napa begini hatiku sedih
Ku sendiri…


Kini aku disini
Cuma sendiri
Tiada yang mencari
Sampai hati
Sampai begini
Kau tak peduli
Oh… teganya!

♠ Berakhirnya sebuah impian utk Sang Puteri ♠

" my mum and dad tak approve i dgn u,so i have to make it a stop!"Dats it.....tats the only n last msg dat i received from him....its kindda lame thou but still....i cant accept his reason....BULLSHIT!!!!!

few hours after dat he delete my pix from his gallery,he delete me from his fren list n msn.....but still my coliq was in his fren list n she showed me his pix wif another gal n they falling in luv......WTF!!!!!!

i juz dunt understand guy like him....in a minute can make lotsa promises n in a split second can change his mind bout it.....

takpelah....hari ni hari dia....besok lusa tuhan jek yg tau.....mungkin dia blom sadar gaknyer....masa dia tgh sakit teruk....i was there for him but when he's recovering,he left me juz like dat....takper....tuhan tu maha kaya....satu hari nnt dia akan trima balasan dari NYA....

Sang puteri hanya mampu berdoa agar si sang putra bahagia bersama pilihannya....tapi ingatlah wahai sang putra bahawa yg tuhan itu maha adil....hari ini sang putra menyakiti hati sang putri....suatu hari nnt sang putra juga akan disakiti oleh insan lain....

I BELIEVE IN KARMA! WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND!

♥Kerana♥

Kerana - Erra Fazira

Kerana terlalu mempercayaimu
Kau istimewa dalam hidup ku
Kerna terlalu menghormati
Terkeliru pandangan mata hati
Kerana terlalu mengasihi
Akhirnya terluka aku sendiri

Aku sangkakan mengenalimu
Aku kenali hati budimu
Aku meyakini engkau luhur
Menyayangiku dengan jujur

Kiranya bagimu itu semua
Hanya satu lakonan, lakonan biasa
Tiada sedikit pun aku sedari
Dipersendakan oh selama ini

Aku sangkakan yang ku gila
Permata tulen yang berharga
Penilaian ku oh ternyata silap
Kau rupanya kaca tak berharga
Kau rupanya kaca tak berharga ( 2X )

♥ Siapa Sangka Siapa Menduga ♥

Siapa Sangka Siapa Menduga - Liza Hanim






Bertahun sudah berdua bersama
Menemhpuh segala dugaan
Walaupun hidup ada kekurangan
Bukan kehendakku
Tabah kuhadapi dengan mu
Itulah yang kupertahankan

Tak dapat dinafikan
Berbagai dugaan
Datang secara tiba-tiba
Apa erti makna tersembunyi
Istana yang dibina teguhnya sementara
Kau mengundurkan diri dariku

( korus )
Tinggallah aku kini seorang diri
Kesana dan kemari
Mencari salahku waktu denganmu
Sambil mengubat hatiku yang sepi

Siapa sangka siapa menduga
Engkau berubah tiada kupinta
Kerana hidup bahagia sentiasa
Tanpa sengketa

Yang kukesalkan dan tak kulupakan
Aku korbankan seluruh hidupku
Semata-mata ingin melihat kau gembira
Kerana kusungguh menyayangi mu

Hidup aku berteman
Rinduku tak pernah padam
Terkilan berpanjangan
Sambil menyapu air mata

pergilah..........

Its happening again!! i can feel it...or maybe its just my wild guess....but y??? y is he avoiding me? i sense dat something is not rite someware...but ware?? izzit my fault or izzit juz him?? is he making use of me??? i noe he still love her very much but i've already told him not to do it again... n he promise not to....

he promise dat he'll not leave me again and will not break my heart for the 2nd tym....tapi aku rasa tu semua janji palsu!!!! aku benci!!!!!!!! y must i keep on thinking of him...??? i've always try to be there for him but... i dont feel appreciated...kehadiran aku mcm utk mengisi kekosongan jek....

knapa mesti aku menyayanginya buat kali kedua??? y must he cum back n give me hopes??? knapa mesti kau kembali mengisi ruang hatiku buat sekali lagi??? aku benci kau!!!! aku benci ditipu sebegini??? adakah sukar utk kau berterus terang??? salahkah??? mengapa kau berjanji jika kau ingin memungkiri???


sang putri sedang dlm kekecewaan....sang putra memungkiri janji....sedih sang putri memikirkan nasib nya....pergilah kasih....pergilah ssayang...tglkan sang putri sendirian lagik....sang putri pasrah........................


Luv,
PryncessHannahLicious

♥Him♥

He has been discharge from hospital 3days ago…his condition seems to be worsening...

Last night while talking to him on the phone….I cried…I just don’t noe y must I cry….I was suppose to be strong to give him moral support. But…I just can’t accept the fact…. I can’t stand seeing him in pain…. Today my eyes was soooo swollen until all my coliq tegur me…

Oh God….Pls take away all his pain n make him well just like before…I can’t bear to lose him…. He means so much to me…

Even though he ever leave me due to unforeseen reason…. But I do still love and care for him…. He’s the one who really appreciate me as what I am…. I’m really happy to get to noe someone like him…

But y must all these things happen when between me n him just bout to start again….I want him to get well like before and lead life as a normal person… And leave all those painful moments behind and start afresh…. I want him to be a new person….

‘ Ya Allah ya Tuhanku….sembuhkan lah segala penyakit yg dideritai nya….engkau yg maha belas kasihan terhadap hambamu yg daif… Ya Allah….padamu aku berserah….semoga kau kabulkan permintaan hamba mu ini ya Tuhanku….Amin Ya Rabbal ‘Alamin…’

Sang puteri sedang dlm kesedihan….tak tahu apa yg harus puteri lakukan….puteri akan selalu berdoa akan kesihatan nya… sang puteri amat merindui sang putera nya….

Luv,
Pryncess HannahLicious

Him

its been the 3rd day...seeing him in this state, i feel like crying....coz its so not him....rite now im beside him typing this blog while he's asleep....yesterday he seems to be ok when i left him for werk....but later part at nite he called up saying that he's in pain.....

i cant concentrate at work....thinking bout his condition.one side of his kidney is failing....ya allah.....sungguh berat ujian yang kau berikan padanya....sayup hatiku melihat dia berkeadaan begitu....

i pray for his speedy recovery.....ya allah...sembuhkan lah segala penyakit yg ditanggung nya....

♥ New addition ♥

we got a new adition to our family....abg hery's wifey giv birth to a healthy baby gal named Nayli Naura. we were so happy for the arrival of the bundle of joy....may god bless her~~~!!!

Wanita Dan Cinta

Wanita lemah pada cinta
Wanita sentiasa takut pada cinta
Wanita sentiasa menharap pada cinta
tapi bagaimana pula cinta pada diri sendiri???


Luv,
Pryncess HannahLicious.

*extract from tv series APA ITU CINTA?*

Cinta Dan Rahsia Part 2

untuk memberitahu seseorg tentang sesuatu rahsia memang amat sukar....contoh nyer lau rahsia tentang perselingkuhan/scandal yg kita lakukan terhadap our other half...its really hard k....1st tym dulu wen i was wif my x.... i tried to be truthful....coz i syg kan dia n syg kan the r'ship....i confess to him n promise to be truthful to him.....BUT!!!!!!!!!!!! yg paling mengejutkan ialah.....he's doing da same thing to me! n he's leaving me for her.....OMG!!!! pros n cons of berterus terang.....siak kan....hahahahahahah.....juz hate it!!!!!

so sejak dari itu.....i promise myself jgn main scandal again....BUT dat doesnt mean dat my other half can do it! if he really luv sumone else,pls2 be truthful to me,dats all i want....but too bad....all my past r'ship...im the one who find out for myself....haiz......

adakah rahsia itu harus saja disimpan demi kebahagiaan?sang putri letih memikirkannya.....biarlah rahsia itu tetap menjadi rahsia....

Hilang - Diddy

Tiada pernah aku menduga
Kasih kau pergi tinggalku sendiri
Dusta cinta mengeruh jiwa
Pedihnya mencengkam dihatiku yang sepi

Sangkaku kasih selamanya
Janjimu setia di hatiku

Seribu penyesalan
Hilang harapan ku impikan
Bahagia kuidam bersamamu
Kasih yang kuserahkan
Hilang meredah luka dalam
Hatiku luluh parah keranamu

Malam dingin ku sendirian
Berteman rindu mimpi yang keliru
Sayang musnah tak kesampaian
Hanya derita rundung duka membelenggu

Sangkaku kasih selamanya
Janjimu setia di hatiku

Seribu penyesalan
Hilang harapan ku impikan
Bahagia kuidam bersamamu
Kasih yang kuserahkan
Hilang meredah luka dalam
Hatiku luluh parah keranamu

Akan ku ubati
Kasih yang pergi dari sisi
Takkan ku biarkan ia
Terus terluka, musnah dan hilang

Bahagia kuidam bersamamu
Sangkaku kasih selamanya
Janjimu setia di hatiku

Seribu penyesalan
Hilang harapan ku impikan
Bahagia kuidam bersamamu
Kasih yang kuserahkan
Hilang meredah luka dalam
Hatiku luluh parah keranamu

CINTA DAN RAHSIA PART 1

OMG!!! i didnt xpect dat i would cry! hahahahahaha..... i watch that tv series APA ITU CINTA again.... ok and i did cry at the end of ep3....hahahahaha....

CINTA DAN RAHSIA???berahsia dlm percintaan?kenapa?adakah ianya perlu?i dunt tink so....pada aku...kita mestilah jujur dlm setiap perhubungan...provided if dat r'ship is gettin serious ah....kalau stakat cinta monyet...tak payah lar....coz to me...if the r'ship is goin sumware....i shld be thruthful to my other half....

hmmmm.....Percintaan tu mmg lah indah....tapi jgn lah ianya dicemari....rahsia...knapa nak berahsia....bukan kan percintaan dan perkahwinan itu satu perkongsian....sharing is caring bebeh....so there's no need to berahsia n such...so far aku tak pernah pon simpan rahsia dgn mantan2 aku....apa yg dorg perlu tau aku bagi tau....mmg ada yg kata aku ni terlalu mempercayai si dia...tapi....to me...its all based on trust....i put my trust on him n i want him to trust me....so no secrets honey!!!!!!

k k...rite now my mind kindda bercelaru....sang puteri tak berapa sihat...apa yg sang putri ingin kan sekarang ialah utk pulang ke rumah dan istirahat....skarang sang putri masih lagik sibuk bekerja....so.......lpas nie kita njoy!!!!!!!!!!!!hahahahahahahaha,......

luv,
pryncess hannahlicious.

APA ITU CINTA????

APA ITU CINTA??? dats the title of the tv series dat im currently watching....ia benar2 menunjukkan kisah seseorang yg mencari cinta bersama teman2 nyer....tgh syok layan citer nie...tiba2 hati ku bertanya kepada diri sendiri....APA ITU CINTA??? benarkah cinta itu benar2 wujud dlm diri ku? hmmmm..... ntah lah ehk....susah nak dijangkakan.... hatiku sering berkata kata....sama ada si DIA yg mengatakan cinta itu benar2 bermaksud utk menyatakn nya atau pon sebaliknya..... hmmmmm..... ku jejaki memori silam ku dgn mereka yg pernah mengatakn I LOVE YOU.

ok.... lets start with ERMIE, cinta? apa kata dia? cinta yg ku berikan padanya dianggap seperti ntah apa2 ntah lar.... dia tak pernah menyintai aku tapi mengatakn i luv u juz for da sake of saying it....guys....hopefully now he's happy wif his wife! den came WANDY, he was there wen i broke up wif ermie, giving lots of advice n end up i fall for him...sayin I LOVE YOU...but didnt mean it...always got no tym for me... apa erti cinta padanya??? cinta = nafsu??? atau sebaliknya??? still finding the answer...haiz... den came YAN, kenal da lama tapi tak pernah jumper... like him the way he potray himself over the fone... said dat he luv me, but im not too sure....tak jumpe camner bleh luv kan? i even told him dat we cant be together.... he is perfect in everything...n me? lotsa flaws.... wat if he said he luv den wen we mit he said dat he hate? aiyo....kan susah tu mcm.....lagipon wen i went to his profile kat tagged....bnyk btol kekasih dia....parah2....

bleh lost count tau org yg ckp i luv u but dunt noe how to mean it....so far i havent find HIM who said I LOVE YOU and REALLY MEAN IT!!!!! klakar kan manusia nie....tak tau apa yg sebenarnya dicari.... masih mencari dlm gelap.... masihkan ada cahaya di dlm kegelapan itu....oh...b4 i 4get....there's this guy....noe him for years already....confess dat he really luv n care for me....n i DID eventually fall for him.... n i even let my cuzin get to noe him.... n now.... as wat i heard frm cuzzie, he confess to her dat he like her.... haiz..... cant he decide??? dunno wat happen between him n cuzzie... last wk when i met my fren i saw him, so said dat he still luv me... n straight away i tell him.... u luv me or my cuzzie? he said dat he luv me, n he like my cuzin..... dlm hati aku berkata, dari syg boleh bertukar menjadi benci.... dari suka boleh bertukar menjadi cinta/kasih/sayang.... correct me if im wrong.... i dunt wanna risk myself of gettin hurt again.....

im sick of getting hurt,crying every night.... bosan lah mcm tu.... for now...im looking for a freind...friend dat i can rely on....teman ketawa,suka dan duka...skarang im kindda close to HAZMADI aka MADI.. noe him from tagged...n currently in contact wif him via fone...he's a great fren...kuat nyakat... suka carik pasal.... always miss him n his voice when he's not there....haahahahaha klakar kan....aku suka kacau dia by calling him BIE...follow the way dlm cite 2x5Dol....hehehehe....lucky he dunt mind....aku rasa i start calling him dat actually masa tu aku tgh ngantok n dunt realise wat im talking bout....sebab tu skarang lau bobal...i will always hang up if i start feel sleepy already....tkut aku merepek bende2 yg tak sepatutnyer....but guess wat....aku blom lagik jumper ngan dia....hahahhahaha..... bila agaknyer nak jumpe ehk????haiyo..... fening lar....MADI...lau baca blog nie takya kembang k kene puji....u tu dalah got babyface....takya nak senyum lebih2 k...nnt i cair....susah u nnt....heheheheheheh......

CINTA????? apa ertinya cinta??? apa kata cinta??? apa itu cinta??? akan terleraikah segala jawapan ini????atau ia akan menjadi tanda tanya sehingga SI DIA yg really mean it wen saying it...dtg mengetuk pintu hatiku ini???? haiz.... impian sang puteri tak akan selalunya dpt dikecapi....mungkin sang ibu pari2 ku blom tiba utk menghayunkan tongkat sakti nya pada ku utk menjadi seorg putri idaman ramai org.....utk skarang aku hanya lah puteri yg hodoh dan tak disenangi...... sang puteri hodoh ingin beradu sebentar....smpi disini saja nukilan isi hatiku ini......

Riang Ria Beraya Di Darul Ma'wa

Venue: Darul Mawa Children Home
Date: 19/10/2008

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Sambutan yg sederhana tapi amat meriah....kita raikan bersama anak2 darul ma'wa....ramai artis tanahair dan juga luar negara dijemput...kita ada dari Singapura seperti Fyno,Lynn Malik,Null Mambang,Fadillah Samsudin dan juga Ashmir Roslan.Dari Malaysia kita ada Alja,peserta Gangstarz.Dan dari Brunei pula kita ada Amrey...

Tersenyum riang anak2 darul mawa dgn kehadiran dan juga persembahan dari artis jemputan...tapi tak lupa juga ada persembahan dari volunteer kita...seperti Dyan,Kim dan Yati...dan juga persembahan dikir barat serta tarian dari anak2 Darul Mawa.

A day @ Darul Syifa (Jamiyah Nursing Home)

my 1st tym went there.....bila aku smpi jek...im being greet by tis nenek...wheel chair bound...cian dia...dgn bersusah payah dia ucap kan salam dan bertanya khabar....sayup hatiku melihatnya...dia sakit angin ahmar...n kene whole body...dats y its hard for her to talk...bila aku salam dia...dia cium dahi aku....dat tym airmata aku dah nak meleleh...but aku control beb....aku teringat kat arwah ibu(my nenek)...

den aku naik atas to mit atok at his room...or more like ward...keluar dari lift aku nmpk ramai atok n nenek sedang berehat rehat disitu...aku tgk mummy,kak yati n kak ros....tiga2 mata dah merah....aduhai....i went near one of dis atok....he look like my arwah wawa....bila aku salam dan cium tgn nyer...dia belai tgn aku...den i left him and said dat i'll cum back aft i see my atok...

most of the patient there is melayu...ada jugak yg berbangsa cina...tapi tak bnyk....nurse/helper kat situ semua filipino...n they can speak malay very well....smpi jek kat katil atok aku salam cium tgn dia...really miss him soo much....aku pon baru dpt tahu yg he was admitted there...lepas rindu aku bila tgn wajahnyer...yelah keluarga dia tak nak kita tau....dats y kita baru tau yg dia admit kat situ.....

tgh kita semua rancak berbual bual...n trying very hard to make him hear wat we r toking bout...tiba2 aku dgr ada org menjerit...kak yati tnyer d nurse sape yg pekik...den she bring us near to the patient...meleleh airmataku bila melihat pesakit yg menjerit itu....dia menghidapi penyakit cerebral palsy...kesian dia...dia baru jek berumur 23 tahun...he was admitted since 2003....masa aku kat tepi katil dia...dia tersenyum melihat kami semua...he cant eat solid food...he can only take milk via tube...

setelah lebih 3 jam disitu....kami pon beransur pulang...ppl at the admin office not friendly at all but the nurses n helper semua very friendly....i promise myself to cum back there again to visit atok n his friend...sayup sungguh rasa hatiku mengenangkan nasib mereka semua...crita2 yg aku dgr dari penghuni2 disitu akan tetap tersimpan diingatan....

♥ This I Promise U♥

For my baby!!!!miss u lots dear!!!

♠ Frenz for life ♠

This are the ppl dat r most dearest to me....kwn2 aku yg giler2....hahahahahaha.....but i luv to be wif dem....eventhou im kindda younger den dem...they treat me nice....its like im having lots of brothers and sisters...wich i dun even have any sister at alll...would treasure the frenship till i die!!!!pix dat im uploading is MAKEOVER pix done by elly....hahahahahahaha........here u go

1st to go is me,part dis pic aku suka...jambu plus diff!!



part nie cam siakenz!



ni kata dorg solid gold dancer!



next is Elly!!





Nitra!





Yana!






Afad!


Sani!





Hamir!





Sham Magiq!




Nora!




Abg Z & Jali

♣ Iftar ♣

after weeks or mths of hardworkin to make tis iftar a sucess...at last it happen....alhamdulillah....semua berjalan dgn sempurna....not much pix were taken frm my side but here's da link dat i can share wif u all....


here u go!


http://devilishbabe.multiply.com/photos/album/130/iftar_darul_mawa_sun_14_sept_08_5.30pm

http://noralynz.multiply.com/photos/album/27/14.09.2008_-_Iftar_2008_?replies_read=6

http://ellykyra.multiply.com/photos/album/41/Iftar_2008?replies_read=18

http://joyahjambu.multiply.com/photos/album/65/September_08?replies_read=31

DoY

my boo

b...i really luv u....but i dunt really now wether tis r'ship gonna work out for us or not.....b....i truly luv u.....


*ku mencintaimu lebih dari apa pun....meskipun tiada satu org pun yg tau....ku mencintaimu sedalam dalam hatiku....meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku......*

♥ JeRa ♥

Hitam bukan dirimu
Putih juga bukan dirimu
Semu ku melihatmu
Tak bercahaya
Seperti memudar

Cinta aku mencinta
Kamu yang aku mau
Namun tak tepat waktu
Ku sudah jera dalam percintaan

Salam hangat untuk cintamu
Aku yang kandas dan patah hati
Biarlah orang memandang lama
Aku tak mau bercinta lagi

Engkau yang dulu pernah ku cinta
Namun terlanjur kau bersamanya
Dan kau terluka oleh cintanya
Kini kau hadir kusudah
Jera

Cinta aku mencinta
Kamu yang aku mau
Namun tak tepat waktu
Ku sudah jera dalam percintaan

Salam hangat untuk cintamu
Aku yang kandas dan patah hati
Biarlah orang memandang lama
Aku tak mau bercinta lagi

Chorus 2x

Engkau yang dulu pernah ku cinta
Namun terlanjur kau bersamanya
Dan ku terluka oleh cintanya
Kini kau hadir kusudah
Jera

♣luahan ku♣

aft i put up da blog wazzup...been receivin sum feedbacks....wat i can say is dat...ORG TAK MERASA ORG TAK AKAN TAHU BAGAIMANA DAN APA YG AKU LALUI....how would u feel if ur bro treat ur cousin more better n closer to her rather den u...been cryin alot thinkin of all tis....org bleh kata napa aku tak ckp ajer ngan abg aku...but hey...u dunt noe my bro...so its easy said den done...sudah lah...aku tahu mesti ada org yg akan baca blog aku nie n mungkin sampaikan pada abg dan kakak ipar aku...biarlah...ini blog aku...disini aku dpt meluahkan segalanya....try to put urself in my shoe n feels wat i feel...

mum n abg hery da ok...but still...hmmmm....lepas satu masalah selesai...masalah lain plak timbol...aku bley giler sak....on my bday eve aku nangis...on my bday itself i cried coz only mum,ayah,abg aim,cik jija n my other cousinsn sum frenz wish me...guess dat u shld noe who didnt wish me rite?takpelah...mungkin dia lupa yg dia ada adik or mungkin dia benar2 lupa bday aku...haiz...

mungkin raya tahun nie takkan seceria raya tahun dulu....segalanya telah berubah...dan tak mungkin akan kembali seperti dulu....haiz...oh god..tis is not wat i want...

ps:i tink she reads my blog as theres a link to this blog frm my frenster....i tink dat xplain y she's behaving weirdly towards me n giv me dat cold shouldr...hmmmm....if i had the chace...i would like to sit wif all my family members n luahkan segalanya...but i tink its all juz angan2 yg tak mungkin terjadi.

Cry

I'm not the type to get my heart broken
I'm not the type to get upset and cry
Cause I never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye
Relationships don't get deep to me
Never got the whole in love thing
And someone can say they love me truely
But at the time it didn't mean a thing

My mind is gone, i'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears i'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

Did it happen when we first kissed
Cause it's hurting me to let it go
Maybe cause we spent so much time
And I know that it's no more
I shoulda never let you hold me baby
Maybe why i'm sad to see us apart
I didn't give to you on purpose
Gotta figure out how you stole my heart

My mind is gone, i'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears i'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

How did I get here with you, i'll never know
I never meant to let it get so, personal
After all I tried to do, stay away from loving you
I'm broken hearted, I can't let you know
And I won't let it show
You won't see me cry

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

wazzup!!!!

its been awhile since i last bloggin in here...been bz wif life...due to being sooo bz,i fall sick...juz recover frm flu n sore throat...

last mth on may25,me n my bunch of AMers fren organized a camp...its a retreat camp for the unfortunate kids....a 3days 2nyte camp...i had sooo much fun wif my fren n the kids....those bunch of munchkinz can be cute n irritating at times...hahahahaha...but afterall we had lotsa fun....

life has been suck for me now...tings are not goin on the way it shld be...guys,now its a big NO for me...my priority for now is WORK n $$$$ plus mummy n ayah...this 2 most dearest ppl in my life...aku sanggup bergadai nyawa utk dorg....mataer mana2 bleh carik but not my parents....its only dat dorg dont really understand me...they still treat me like a child eventhou im goin 22 tis cuming july....bosan tau hidop mcm nie....but i noe dorg kongkong aku pon psl dorg care n luv me as im their only dotter...but at tym aku pon nak freedom seh...haiz...wat can i do...or wat shld i do...nak mengadu nasib ngan adik bradik...abg aku pon bukannyer pedulikan aku pon....abg hery? dia takkn mungkin lah nak tlg aku...dia bnyk dgr ckp bini dia and sibok ngan family sblh bini dia....abg aim?? dia tak abis2 besarkan kwn dia...knapa lah adik bradik aku tak mcm adik bradik org lain?? aku slalu impikan hidup berkeluarga yg aman damai bahagia...tapi...aku adik bradik slalu bertekak....abg hery slalu nak bantah aper yg aku ckp...walaupon aku ckp betol dia ttp nak salahkan aku jugak....bingit seh at tyms...sedih pon ader...napa lah abg2 aku tak mcm abg2 org lain....yg care bout their adik...remember bday adik dia...slalu kuar together...can talk tings out together...help one another...napa abg2 aku tak mcm tu ehk? dulu masa kecik2 aku slalu bangga bila org tnye aku ada abg ker tak...but now aku tak rasa pape pon...abg2 aku yg dulu aku bangga2kan kini ntah hilang kemana...aku rasa mcm aku nie anak tunggal plak....napa ehk? nak ngadu ngan kakak ipar...dulu bleh lah...b4 dia kawin ngan abg aku...slalu ajak aku kuar...tgk wayang...chill out...but now...she seems diff...dia dah jauh berbeza...mmg manusia akan berubah...tapi perubahan ini bukan mendtgkan kebaikan malah mendtgkan kesedihan utk aku...mungkin mmg lumrah sifat aku nie pemanja...spoilt bratz..but...aku pon ada hati dan prasaan...pernah ker abg2 aku fikir how i feel wen they call me names...ejek2 aku...kutuk aku...till i ever tink dat im not fit to be their only small sister...aku slalu cemburu melihat kemesraan org lain yg syg menyayang antara adik bradik....y cant i hav dat?? apa salah aku...i've tried to mend my ways...change my attitude...but they dont seems to care at all....smpi aku even think of staying alone like rent a room or watever...bawa diri jauh dari semua....

k lah enuff bout my family....bosan ah ckp psl dorg....lets talk bout my fren....one of the thursday early june...aku kuar jmp kwn2 aku...had lots of fun wif them...being wif them make me feel happy...aku lupa semua masaalah aku...we talk..we laugh,we dance...dat day makes me feel like im in heaven...but not wen tym roadblock lah k...hehehehe....kete bad keen tahan...n kita tersadai pat tepi jln for nearly 2hr psl tgu yan smpi to drive me,elly n nit back.really had fun dat nyte....thnx them for making my day.....n btwn me n nit...i've cleared evryting to her....lapang dada aku...aku tanak lost the frenship....atleast now she noes the truth dat between aku ngan afad is juz a fren jek....amin...lepas satu masaalah...for now im thinkin of goin for a short trip...nak hilangkan stress n cum back as a new me!!!! cant wait...tapi bila ehk?? but for now aku kene go n merayu to my aunt to let me take annual leave...hehehehe....

♥ Hanya ingin kau tahU ♥

Ku telah miliki
Rasa indahnya perihku
Rasa hancurnya harapku
Kau lepas cintaku

Rasakan abadi
Sekalipun kau mengerti
Sekalipun kau pahami
Ku pikir ku salah mengertimu

Aku hanya ingin kau tahu
Besarnya cintaku
Tingginya khayalku bersamamu

Tuk lalui waktu yang tersisa kini
Di setiap hariku
Di sisa akhir nafas hidupku

ow wooo wo wo wo

Walaupun semua hanya ada dalam mimpiku
Hanya ada dalam anganku
Melewati hidup

Rasakan abadi
Sekalipun kau mengerti
Sekalipun kau pahami
Ku pikir ku salah mengertimu

Aku hanya ingin kau tahu
Besarnya cintaku
Tingginya khayalku bersamamu

Tuk lalui waktu yang tersisa kini
Di setiap hariku
Di sisa akhir nafas hidupku

Aku hanya ingin kau tahu
Besarnya cintaku
Tingginya khayalku bersamamu

Tuk lalui waktu yang tersisa kini
Di setiap hariku
Di sisa akhir nafas hidupku

ow wooo wo wo wo wo wo wo wo wo

♥ Mengenangmu ♥

Takkan pernah habis air mataku
bila kuingat tentang dirimu
mungkin hanya kau yang tau
mengapa sampai saat ini
kumasih sendiri

adakah disana kau rindu padaku
meski kita kini ada di dunia berbeda
bila masih mungkin
waktu kuputar
kan kutunggu dirimu

Biarlah kusimpan
sampai nanti aku
kan ada disana
tenanglah dirimu dalam kedamaian
ingatlah cintaku
kau tak terlihat lagi
namun cintamu abadi



mengenangmu♠kerispatih

♥ Ingkar ♥

Disaat cinta tercipta
Semestinya ku merasa
Dikala hasrat menjalar
Semestinya ku berbalas

Dari hati kini ku sedari
Tak semestinya ku berkasih
jJika hati tak dapat berbahgi
Baiknya rasa itu tersimpan dalam

Semestinya aku mencinta
Seharusnya aku menyayang
Oh maafkan jika semua ini yang ku berikan untukmu

Dari hati kini ku sedari
Tak semestinya ku berkasih
Jika hati tak dapat berbahgi
Baiknya rasa itu tersimpan dalam

Ulang 2x

Semestinya aku mencinta
Seharusnya aku menyayang
Oh maafkan jika semua ini yang ku berikan untukmu

Dari hati kini ku sedari
Tak semestinya ku berkasih



Ingkar♠Bunga Cinta Lestari

♥

-oh tuhan ku cinta dia...berikanlah aku hidup...takkan kusakiti dia...hukum aku bila terjadi...-

y muz it happen wen i like dat sumone ehk??? am i fated not to be loved by anyone?? i started to miss him badly...

waddaa!!!

haiz....tak tau lah apa nak type...bila tadi pat msn kak teanee bobal psl flashback...aku pon terflashback gak...remember those 3guys dat i ever blog bout...lets start wif Zali...dunno wat has happen...we r driftin apart...im kindda bored wif him...asal bobal mesti kuar cita psl duit...skali dua kali tu bleh lah tlg tapi lau dah slalu...parah lah aku...bosan sak lau asik bobal psl short of cash...fed up!!! ya si Ashraf plak...madang MIA jek...malas lah aku org nie mcm...bila kol mcm yeye jek miss lah syg lah...benci aku! i hate guys who gave false hope. yg Lee plak...ntah lah...pon MIA...aku dah malas/carik org2 yg MIA nie mcm...menyampah!!!! skarang nie aku sibok kan diri aku dgn keje keje keje n keje...n oso help mummy wif preparation for kak dik's wedding on tis 26 apr.da fed up wif guys...semua sama jek...mmg aku bnyk blog psl jantan...coz aku mmg bnyk kwn laki as i dont really trust gals sngt...my gf yg paling rapat pon tu kenal dari me p2 seh..till now masih kwn...they totally understand me n we trust each other.k lah...tats it for now...i nid a break!

♣ Rambutku Mahkotaku ♣

lepas geram kat rambut....hahahahahaha


B4 cut hair

i braid my hair

aftermath of braiding

after cut fringe