LuV iS nOt WaT wE bEcOmE bUt WaT wE aLrEaDy ArE...

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2009-04-14T18:32:00.003+08:00

its been so long since i upload anyting here.....been bz since the new module started.....life has been damn suck for me.....

im juz farking tired now....damn lazy to type for now....maybe later part will update more bout wat has been happening!

KL trip 020309-050309

2009-03-14T23:44:00.003+08:00

Went to kl wif sis yana,lyd n mirza....had a great tym wif them....each of us nyer crazyness terserlah.....hahahahahaha.....

actually at 1st it was all girls trip but aku pelawa mirza to follow and he agreed to it...i was so delighted sia....atleast i can be near to sumone i've been having crush on.....hehehehehehe....mentel sak aku......

but wat happen in kl tak disangka....my mood swing went haywire....i got my period on the 2nd day....mood swing giler babi ah.....asik bertekak jek ngan mirza....cian dia....celik mata jek bertekak,mkn bertekak,jln bertekak...ada jek yg nak diargue kan....but thnx to him dat dia tak marah aku although aku mcm sial n perangai kat dia....bila pikir balik tak patut sak aku...but during the trip...i lost control of my emotion,...haiz....baik2 aku nak declare dat i had a crush on him...tros terbantut sia....n i guez dats explain y he change wen we r back here.

i noe dat he's totally mad at me n i admit my mistake but wat i cant accept is dat he said dat im an attention seeker...my nature is dat my manjaness n spoilt bratness is shown n sis yana n lyd dah paham sngt lah kan....but not him i guess...dats y dia ckp aku nie attention seeker.... but helooooo mister....i dunt seek for ur attention okey!!!!! tak suka leh bobal ah...takya nak ckp aku nie lah tu lah.....haiz....

im totally upset with him....wat he said has been repeatedly playin in my mind evrytime aku tgk pic dia.....BENCI!!!!! i hate u mirza..... lyd suro aku confess kat dia dat i luv him....but i gues shld juz let it be....blom confess da panggil aku attention seeker...apa lagik lau aku confess seh....haiz.....agaknyer dia mungkin ckp yg aku nie tak sedar diri kot nak kat dia.....i had enuff of upsetness so pls dunt add up to it......let the feeling stay ware it shld...he dont nid to noe bout it.....

but wat really touch my heart is dat he bought me a lv lighter....n pass it to me b4 we board the bus to go back to sg.....i feel like crying sia....tat lighter will always be kept safely...its the only memory dat i hav bout him other den our pix....

hopefully he will realize dat im not like wat he tink i am.....

luv,
pryncesshannahlicious

" sang puteri sngt sedih akan kehilangan putra mirza yg sudah menjadi seorg sahabat yg baik baginya.... "

Thnx for everyting

2009-03-07T14:32:00.002+08:00

Guess dat i shld juz kip tis feeling to myself....he doesnt hav to noe bout it....let it be my secret forever....

thnx for all the memories tat u've given me...appreciate it n will remember it till the day i die....u're such a swit person to be with....all those hopes dat i have has gone down the drain...u've changed....u're not the same person i used to noe....

sedangkan pantai lagi kan berubah...inikan pula hati manusia...and apa yg berlaku ini telah i duga since i 1st saw u....i dah agak tis ting will happen....but didnt xpect it to be tis soon....

my only hope is dat u be happy wif whoever u r wif now...

Luv,
Pryncesshannahlicious

"Sang Puteri telah hilang segalanya"

Eve of Vday

2009-02-15T20:30:00.003+08:00

Received a call frm sumone i've been waiting for....Wan called me up on 130209 @ 1857hrs...detail seh...hahahahah.....He ask me out....i didnt xpect it sia.....dats wat i've been waiting for as he's always bz wif gerai...

Out for a movie date with Wan....we watch New In Town...i had a g8 time with him...we sit and talk as we wait for our movie to start at 2325hrs....

My thot was that he gonna be very cold towards me as he has been ignoring me for a wk...he told me that he's on reservist n apologize for ignoring me...."Dear...ur apology accepted k...." heheheheh....

i enjoyed his accompany....we were so close as if we have always met b4....he treat me very nice....i really didnt xpect tat its goin to be dat way....OMG...pls...dont let me fall for him....i dunt wanna fall n get hurt again...

Thnx for da treat dear....its such a suprise to see u on eve of Vday thou u didnt celebrate it....heheheheheh....miss u dearly....hahahahahah....

sang putri harus menahan dirinya dari jatuh cinta...
kerana sang putri tak ingin disakiti lagik...
sang putri sentiasa berdoa dipertemukan
bersama sang putra yg menerimanya seadanya...

Luv,
Pryncess HannahLicious

Shld i stop this feeling or shld i tell him the truth?????

2009-02-07T11:22:00.002+08:00

I shld stop myself from falling in luv with him.....i noe im not his cuppa tea...so before i hurt myself by falling in luv n get rejected by him,....mite as well i force myself to stop luvin....and stop fallin for him......

i realize this feeling wen i was on my way to KL for my cuzin's wedding during CNY period....he was suppose to call me b4 i go...but maybe he's angry with me so until i reach tuas checkpoint i cant get thru him....i was super sad the whole journey.....i did msg him using mum's fone n his reply was juz "ok"....

i dunt understand y i fall for him....wen he ask me wether i reject rizan n max is becoz of him....den i realize dat i've been comparing dem with him....he's so complete in my eyes....i even told rizan dat i was attached with sumone n dat sumone i potray as him....hahahaahhaha....feeling2 kan?tau.....

apa yg buat aku suka n syg pada dia....??? dats wat i kip asking myself... i dunt noe the answer....i juz did......he's a caring person thou....tapi aku kene sedar diri...he wont go with my kind of gal who is ugly n fat....sungguh tak sepadan kan???hehehehehehe.....

Wan....y u came into my life??? r u sent to me by god to be juz a fren or more den dat???i juz dunno y muz i fall for u....im sorry but i juz did....dats y whenever u moody or marah i'll always say sorry as i dunt wanna lose u......not anymore pls....i've had enuff of losing all the pplz i luv n care for.....pls stay for this tym....but im sorry dat i wrote this.....n i noe u kindda angry with me now.....takmo marah k dear.....pls.......

ps: u noe wat....bila u ckp psl dah malas tu....i was really hoping dat it wont happen to me.....but if its happening....pls dunt ignore me,juz tell me the truth n i'll simply go....go out of ur life....aitez??

Berikan lah kesempatan....
untuk aku menjelaskan....
Agar engkau kan fahami....
Apa yg telah terjadi....

€ im back to skool €

2009-01-07T10:38:00.001+08:00

My 1st day at sch was great....although dat not much ppl turn up for the 1st lesson.The lecturer was ok,he's very good n fast.he really explains everything that came up on the slide.He explain all the words that seems strange to me.Although im the only malay in the class....he dont seems to outcast me as the only malay student.but my classmate seems like they dont really like me.i feel left out when they start talking in mandarin.thou i did understand what they said,i juz keep mum...

looking at the book for the whole semester for my diploma in administrative management course,it seems that its not enuff.but Dr Wong,our D101 lecturer,do gave us some notes to rely on,and he even suggest some textbook wich we have to source for it in the library.

today will be my 2nd day at school.i wasnt too sure wats the outcome of it....hahahahaha.....coz today we will be having another lecturer wich i dont noe how the way he teach.hopefully i can strive for the best in pursuing my diploma.....i have to get that piece of paper! and in order to get it,i have to study hard to work on it....its been nearly 3yrs since i left sch so my brain gonna be a bit RUSTY! hahahahahahahha...... have to brush it up to make it shinier....*can i?* hmmmm.....

Ya Allah....may my wish come true....i wanna be the one Mummy and Ayah can rely on.I wanna prove to mamang nordin that me too can make it...me too can be the best!i can make it to the top....!!!!! I want ppl to look high up on me when im oready be the best....coz ppl always look down on me n said that im very stupid and dats the main reason that i keep repeatin my secondary 3 when im in Madrasah.i wanna to prove to all tha im am not like what they thot i am!!! i'll be the best!!! Pryncess will work hard to strive for the best and get my Diploma n Adv Diploma in a year!!!!! Insyaallah!! Amin!!!!!!!!!!

♥Goodbye 2008,Welcome 2009♥

2009-01-01T00:28:00.002+08:00

Happy 2009!!!!!!

2008...tahun yang banyak meninggalkan kenangan buat Sang Puteri....segala kenangan pahit dan manis sentiasa dlm ingatan....mereka yg pernah hadir dlm hidupku kini akan kusimpan segala memori itu dan mulakan buku baru....buku baru utk tahun 2009....semoga tahun ini akan menjadi lebih baik utkku.....

saat akhir 2008...i was wif Cuzzie nor and my fren mir...thnx dearest...luv u both....

duh!

2008-12-27T02:22:00.003+08:00

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knapa lah susah sngt aku nak lupakan dia??? Y!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im so piss off with myself....tak faham ah aku....

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♥ Oh Teganya.... ♥

2008-12-27T00:51:00.000+08:00

Akhirnya kau pun pergi
Biarkan ku disini
Ternyata kau juga tak punya hati
Pedih hati tak terperi
Sedih kutelan sendiri
Mau marah tapinya sama siapa?

Kini aku disini
Cuma sendiri
Tiada yang mencari
Sampai hati
Sampai begini
Kau tak peduli
Oh… teganya

Apakah salah dan dosaku
Mengapa s’mua tinggalkan ku
Mau marah tapinya sama siapa?

Kini aku disini
Cuma sendiri
Tiada yang mencari
Sampai hati
Sampai begini
Kau tak peduli
Oh… teganya

Pedih ku tak terbendung
Langit ku mendung tiada berujung
K’mana berlindung

Sekarang engkau pun pergi
K’napa begini hatiku sedih
Ku sendiri…

Kini aku disini
Cuma sendiri
Tiada yang mencari
Sampai hati
Sampai begini
Kau tak peduli
Oh… teganya!

♠ Berakhirnya sebuah impian utk Sang Puteri ♠

2008-12-23T17:07:00.002+08:00

" my mum and dad tak approve i dgn u,so i have to make it a stop!"Dats it.....tats the only n last msg dat i received from him....its kindda lame thou but still....i cant accept his reason....BULLSHIT!!!!!

few hours after dat he delete my pix from his gallery,he delete me from his fren list n msn.....but still my coliq was in his fren list n she showed me his pix wif another gal n they falling in luv......WTF!!!!!!

i juz dunt understand guy like him....in a minute can make lotsa promises n in a split second can change his mind bout it.....

takpelah....hari ni hari dia....besok lusa tuhan jek yg tau.....mungkin dia blom sadar gaknyer....masa dia tgh sakit teruk....i was there for him but when he's recovering,he left me juz like dat....takper....tuhan tu maha kaya....satu hari nnt dia akan trima balasan dari NYA....

Sang puteri hanya mampu berdoa agar si sang putra bahagia bersama pilihannya....tapi ingatlah wahai sang putra bahawa yg tuhan itu maha adil....hari ini sang putra menyakiti hati sang putri....suatu hari nnt sang putra juga akan disakiti oleh insan lain....

I BELIEVE IN KARMA! WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND!

♥Kerana♥

2008-12-19T07:30:00.001+08:00

Kerana - Erra Fazira

Kerana terlalu mempercayaimu
Kau istimewa dalam hidup ku
Kerna terlalu menghormati
Terkeliru pandangan mata hati
Kerana terlalu mengasihi
Akhirnya terluka aku sendiri

Aku sangkakan mengenalimu
Aku kenali hati budimu
Aku meyakini engkau luhur
Menyayangiku dengan jujur

Kiranya bagimu itu semua
Hanya satu lakonan, lakonan biasa
Tiada sedikit pun aku sedari
Dipersendakan oh selama ini

Aku sangkakan yang ku gila
Permata tulen yang berharga
Penilaian ku oh ternyata silap
Kau rupanya kaca tak berharga
Kau rupanya kaca tak berharga ( 2X )

♥ Siapa Sangka Siapa Menduga ♥

2008-12-19T07:21:00.001+08:00

Siapa Sangka Siapa Menduga - Liza Hanim

Bertahun sudah berdua bersama
Menemhpuh segala dugaan
Walaupun hidup ada kekurangan
Bukan kehendakku
Tabah kuhadapi dengan mu
Itulah yang kupertahankan

Tak dapat dinafikan
Berbagai dugaan
Datang secara tiba-tiba
Apa erti makna tersembunyi
Istana yang dibina teguhnya sementara
Kau mengundurkan diri dariku

( korus )
Tinggallah aku kini seorang diri
Kesana dan kemari
Mencari salahku waktu denganmu
Sambil mengubat hatiku yang sepi

Siapa sangka siapa menduga
Engkau berubah tiada kupinta
Kerana hidup bahagia sentiasa
Tanpa sengketa

Yang kukesalkan dan tak kulupakan
Aku korbankan seluruh hidupku
Semata-mata ingin melihat kau gembira
Kerana kusungguh menyayangi mu

Hidup aku berteman
Rinduku tak pernah padam
Terkilan berpanjangan
Sambil menyapu air mata

pergilah..........

2008-12-19T06:50:00.002+08:00

Its happening again!! i can feel it...or maybe its just my wild guess....but y??? y is he avoiding me? i sense dat something is not rite someware...but ware?? izzit my fault or izzit juz him?? is he making use of me??? i noe he still love her very much but i've already told him not to do it again... n he promise not to....

he promise dat he'll not leave me again and will not break my heart for the 2nd tym....tapi aku rasa tu semua janji palsu!!!! aku benci!!!!!!!! y must i keep on thinking of him...??? i've always try to be there for him but... i dont feel appreciated...kehadiran aku mcm utk mengisi kekosongan jek....

knapa mesti aku menyayanginya buat kali kedua??? y must he cum back n give me hopes??? knapa mesti kau kembali mengisi ruang hatiku buat sekali lagi??? aku benci kau!!!! aku benci ditipu sebegini??? adakah sukar utk kau berterus terang??? salahkah??? mengapa kau berjanji jika kau ingin memungkiri???

sang putri sedang dlm kekecewaan....sang putra memungkiri janji....sedih sang putri memikirkan nasib nya....pergilah kasih....pergilah ssayang...tglkan sang putri sendirian lagik....sang putri pasrah........................

Luv,
PryncessHannahLicious

♥Him♥

2008-12-12T17:49:00.000+08:00

He has been discharge from hospital 3days ago…his condition seems to be worsening...

Last night while talking to him on the phone….I cried…I just don’t noe y must I cry….I was suppose to be strong to give him moral support. But…I just can’t accept the fact…. I can’t stand seeing him in pain…. Today my eyes was soooo swollen until all my coliq tegur me…

Oh God….Pls take away all his pain n make him well just like before…I can’t bear to lose him…. He means so much to me…

Even though he ever leave me due to unforeseen reason…. But I do still love and care for him…. He’s the one who really appreciate me as what I am…. I’m really happy to get to noe someone like him…

But y must all these things happen when between me n him just bout to start again….I want him to get well like before and lead life as a normal person… And leave all those painful moments behind and start afresh…. I want him to be a new person….

‘ Ya Allah ya Tuhanku….sembuhkan lah segala penyakit yg dideritai nya….engkau yg maha belas kasihan terhadap hambamu yg daif… Ya Allah….padamu aku berserah….semoga kau kabulkan permintaan hamba mu ini ya Tuhanku….Amin Ya Rabbal ‘Alamin…’

Sang puteri sedang dlm kesedihan….tak tahu apa yg harus puteri lakukan….puteri akan selalu berdoa akan kesihatan nya… sang puteri amat merindui sang putera nya….

Luv,
Pryncess HannahLicious

Him

2008-12-09T12:50:00.003+08:00

its been the 3rd day...seeing him in this state, i feel like crying....coz its so not him....rite now im beside him typing this blog while he's asleep....yesterday he seems to be ok when i left him for werk....but later part at nite he called up saying that he's in pain.....

i cant concentrate at work....thinking bout his condition.one side of his kidney is failing....ya allah.....sungguh berat ujian yang kau berikan padanya....sayup hatiku melihat dia berkeadaan begitu....

i pray for his speedy recovery.....ya allah...sembuhkan lah segala penyakit yg ditanggung nya....

♥ New addition ♥

2008-11-24T18:43:00.003+08:00

we got a new adition to our family....abg hery's wifey giv birth to a healthy baby gal named Nayli Naura. we were so happy for the arrival of the bundle of joy....may god bless her~~~!!!

Wanita Dan Cinta

2008-11-20T20:45:00.003+08:00

Wanita lemah pada cinta
Wanita sentiasa takut pada cinta
Wanita sentiasa menharap pada cinta
tapi bagaimana pula cinta pada diri sendiri???

Luv,
Pryncess HannahLicious.

*extract from tv series APA ITU CINTA?*

Cinta Dan Rahsia Part 2

2008-11-20T20:44:00.000+08:00

untuk memberitahu seseorg tentang sesuatu rahsia memang amat sukar....contoh nyer lau rahsia tentang perselingkuhan/scandal yg kita lakukan terhadap our other half...its really hard k....1st tym dulu wen i was wif my x.... i tried to be truthful....coz i syg kan dia n syg kan the r'ship....i confess to him n promise to be truthful to him.....BUT!!!!!!!!!!!! yg paling mengejutkan ialah.....he's doing da same thing to me! n he's leaving me for her.....OMG!!!! pros n cons of berterus terang.....siak kan....hahahahahahah.....juz hate it!!!!!

so sejak dari itu.....i promise myself jgn main scandal again....BUT dat doesnt mean dat my other half can do it! if he really luv sumone else,pls2 be truthful to me,dats all i want....but too bad....all my past r'ship...im the one who find out for myself....haiz......

adakah rahsia itu harus saja disimpan demi kebahagiaan?sang putri letih memikirkannya.....biarlah rahsia itu tetap menjadi rahsia....

Hilang - Diddy

2008-11-20T20:41:00.001+08:00

Hilang - Diddy

Tiada pernah aku menduga
Kasih kau pergi tinggalku sendiri
Dusta cinta mengeruh jiwa
Pedihnya mencengkam dihatiku yang sepi

Sangkaku kasih selamanya
Janjimu setia di hatiku

Seribu penyesalan
Hilang harapan ku impikan
Bahagia kuidam bersamamu
Kasih yang kuserahkan
Hilang meredah luka dalam
Hatiku luluh parah keranamu

Malam dingin ku sendirian
Berteman rindu mimpi yang keliru
Sayang musnah tak kesampaian
Hanya derita rundung duka membelenggu

Sangkaku kasih selamanya
Janjimu setia di hatiku

Seribu penyesalan
Hilang harapan ku impikan
Bahagia kuidam bersamamu
Kasih yang kuserahkan
Hilang meredah luka dalam
Hatiku luluh parah keranamu

Akan ku ubati
Kasih yang pergi dari sisi
Takkan ku biarkan ia
Terus terluka, musnah dan hilang

Bahagia kuidam bersamamu
Sangkaku kasih selamanya
Janjimu setia di hatiku

Seribu penyesalan
Hilang harapan ku impikan
Bahagia kuidam bersamamu
Kasih yang kuserahkan
Hilang meredah luka dalam
Hatiku luluh parah keranamu

CINTA DAN RAHSIA PART 1

2008-11-12T20:03:00.003+08:00

OMG!!! i didnt xpect dat i would cry! hahahahahaha..... i watch that tv series APA ITU CINTA again.... ok and i did cry at the end of ep3....hahahahaha....

CINTA DAN RAHSIA???berahsia dlm percintaan?kenapa?adakah ianya perlu?i dunt tink so....pada aku...kita mestilah jujur dlm setiap perhubungan...provided if dat r'ship is gettin serious ah....kalau stakat cinta monyet...tak payah lar....coz to me...if the r'ship is goin sumware....i shld be thruthful to my other half....

hmmmm.....Percintaan tu mmg lah indah....tapi jgn lah ianya dicemari....rahsia...knapa nak berahsia....bukan kan percintaan dan perkahwinan itu satu perkongsian....sharing is caring bebeh....so there's no need to berahsia n such...so far aku tak pernah pon simpan rahsia dgn mantan2 aku....apa yg dorg perlu tau aku bagi tau....mmg ada yg kata aku ni terlalu mempercayai si dia...tapi....to me...its all based on trust....i put my trust on him n i want him to trust me....so no secrets honey!!!!!!

k k...rite now my mind kindda bercelaru....sang puteri tak berapa sihat...apa yg sang putri ingin kan sekarang ialah utk pulang ke rumah dan istirahat....skarang sang putri masih lagik sibuk bekerja....so.......lpas nie kita njoy!!!!!!!!!!!!hahahahahahahaha,......

luv,
pryncess hannahlicious.

APA ITU CINTA????

2008-11-07T04:23:00.003+08:00

APA ITU CINTA??? dats the title of the tv series dat im currently watching....ia benar2 menunjukkan kisah seseorang yg mencari cinta bersama teman2 nyer....tgh syok layan citer nie...tiba2 hati ku bertanya kepada diri sendiri....APA ITU CINTA??? benarkah cinta itu benar2 wujud dlm diri ku? hmmmm..... ntah lah ehk....susah nak dijangkakan.... hatiku sering berkata kata....sama ada si DIA yg mengatakan cinta itu benar2 bermaksud utk menyatakn nya atau pon sebaliknya..... hmmmmm..... ku jejaki memori silam ku dgn mereka yg pernah mengatakn I LOVE YOU.

ok.... lets start with ERMIE, cinta? apa kata dia? cinta yg ku berikan padanya dianggap seperti ntah apa2 ntah lar.... dia tak pernah menyintai aku tapi mengatakn i luv u juz for da sake of saying it....guys....hopefully now he's happy wif his wife! den came WANDY, he was there wen i broke up wif ermie, giving lots of advice n end up i fall for him...sayin I LOVE YOU...but didnt mean it...always got no tym for me... apa erti cinta padanya??? cinta = nafsu??? atau sebaliknya??? still finding the answer...haiz... den came YAN, kenal da lama tapi tak pernah jumper... like him the way he potray himself over the fone... said dat he luv me, but im not too sure....tak jumpe camner bleh luv kan? i even told him dat we cant be together.... he is perfect in everything...n me? lotsa flaws.... wat if he said he luv den wen we mit he said dat he hate? aiyo....kan susah tu mcm.....lagipon wen i went to his profile kat tagged....bnyk btol kekasih dia....parah2....

bleh lost count tau org yg ckp i luv u but dunt noe how to mean it....so far i havent find HIM who said I LOVE YOU and REALLY MEAN IT!!!!! klakar kan manusia nie....tak tau apa yg sebenarnya dicari.... masih mencari dlm gelap.... masihkan ada cahaya di dlm kegelapan itu....oh...b4 i 4get....there's this guy....noe him for years already....confess dat he really luv n care for me....n i DID eventually fall for him.... n i even let my cuzin get to noe him.... n now.... as wat i heard frm cuzzie, he confess to her dat he like her.... haiz..... cant he decide??? dunno wat happen between him n cuzzie... last wk when i met my fren i saw him, so said dat he still luv me... n straight away i tell him.... u luv me or my cuzzie? he said dat he luv me, n he like my cuzin..... dlm hati aku berkata, dari syg boleh bertukar menjadi benci.... dari suka boleh bertukar menjadi cinta/kasih/sayang.... correct me if im wrong.... i dunt wanna risk myself of gettin hurt again.....

im sick of getting hurt,crying every night.... bosan lah mcm tu.... for now...im looking for a freind...friend dat i can rely on....teman ketawa,suka dan duka...skarang im kindda close to HAZMADI aka MADI.. noe him from tagged...n currently in contact wif him via fone...he's a great fren...kuat nyakat... suka carik pasal.... always miss him n his voice when he's not there....haahahahaha klakar kan....aku suka kacau dia by calling him BIE...follow the way dlm cite 2x5Dol....hehehehe....lucky he dunt mind....aku rasa i start calling him dat actually masa tu aku tgh ngantok n dunt realise wat im talking bout....sebab tu skarang lau bobal...i will always hang up if i start feel sleepy already....tkut aku merepek bende2 yg tak sepatutnyer....but guess wat....aku blom lagik jumper ngan dia....hahahhahaha..... bila agaknyer nak jumpe ehk????haiyo..... fening lar....MADI...lau baca blog nie takya kembang k kene puji....u tu dalah got babyface....takya nak senyum lebih2 k...nnt i cair....susah u nnt....heheheheheheh......

CINTA????? apa ertinya cinta??? apa kata cinta??? apa itu cinta??? akan terleraikah segala jawapan ini????atau ia akan menjadi tanda tanya sehingga SI DIA yg really mean it wen saying it...dtg mengetuk pintu hatiku ini???? haiz.... impian sang puteri tak akan selalunya dpt dikecapi....mungkin sang ibu pari2 ku blom tiba utk menghayunkan tongkat sakti nya pada ku utk menjadi seorg putri idaman ramai org.....utk skarang aku hanya lah puteri yg hodoh dan tak disenangi...... sang puteri hodoh ingin beradu sebentar....smpi disini saja nukilan isi hatiku ini......

Riang Ria Beraya Di Darul Ma'wa

2008-10-23T18:30:00.005+08:00

Venue: Darul Mawa Children Home
Date: 19/10/2008

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Sambutan yg sederhana tapi amat meriah....kita raikan bersama anak2 darul ma'wa....ramai artis tanahair dan juga luar negara dijemput...kita ada dari Singapura seperti Fyno,Lynn Malik,Null Mambang,Fadillah Samsudin dan juga Ashmir Roslan.Dari Malaysia kita ada Alja,peserta Gangstarz.Dan dari Brunei pula kita ada Amrey...

Tersenyum riang anak2 darul mawa dgn kehadiran dan juga persembahan dari artis jemputan...tapi tak lupa juga ada persembahan dari volunteer kita...seperti Dyan,Kim dan Yati...dan juga persembahan dikir barat serta tarian dari anak2 Darul Mawa.

A day @ Darul Syifa (Jamiyah Nursing Home)

2008-10-14T23:26:00.000+08:00

my 1st tym went there.....bila aku smpi jek...im being greet by tis nenek...wheel chair bound...cian dia...dgn bersusah payah dia ucap kan salam dan bertanya khabar....sayup hatiku melihatnya...dia sakit angin ahmar...n kene whole body...dats y its hard for her to talk...bila aku salam dia...dia cium dahi aku....dat tym airmata aku dah nak meleleh...but aku control beb....aku teringat kat arwah ibu(my nenek)...

den aku naik atas to mit atok at his room...or more like ward...keluar dari lift aku nmpk ramai atok n nenek sedang berehat rehat disitu...aku tgk mummy,kak yati n kak ros....tiga2 mata dah merah....aduhai....i went near one of dis atok....he look like my arwah wawa....bila aku salam dan cium tgn nyer...dia belai tgn aku...den i left him and said dat i'll cum back aft i see my atok...

most of the patient there is melayu...ada jugak yg berbangsa cina...tapi tak bnyk....nurse/helper kat situ semua filipino...n they can speak malay very well....smpi jek kat katil atok aku salam cium tgn dia...really miss him soo much....aku pon baru dpt tahu yg he was admitted there...lepas rindu aku bila tgn wajahnyer...yelah keluarga dia tak nak kita tau....dats y kita baru tau yg dia admit kat situ.....

tgh kita semua rancak berbual bual...n trying very hard to make him hear wat we r toking bout...tiba2 aku dgr ada org menjerit...kak yati tnyer d nurse sape yg pekik...den she bring us near to the patient...meleleh airmataku bila melihat pesakit yg menjerit itu....dia menghidapi penyakit cerebral palsy...kesian dia...dia baru jek berumur 23 tahun...he was admitted since 2003....masa aku kat tepi katil dia...dia tersenyum melihat kami semua...he cant eat solid food...he can only take milk via tube...

setelah lebih 3 jam disitu....kami pon beransur pulang...ppl at the admin office not friendly at all but the nurses n helper semua very friendly....i promise myself to cum back there again to visit atok n his friend...sayup sungguh rasa hatiku mengenangkan nasib mereka semua...crita2 yg aku dgr dari penghuni2 disitu akan tetap tersimpan diingatan....

♥ This I Promise U♥

2008-09-20T18:00:00.000+08:00

For my baby!!!!miss u lots dear!!!

♠ Frenz for life ♠

2008-09-20T17:23:00.016+08:00

This are the ppl dat r most dearest to me....kwn2 aku yg giler2....hahahahahaha.....but i luv to be wif dem....eventhou im kindda younger den dem...they treat me nice....its like im having lots of brothers and sisters...wich i dun even have any sister at alll...would treasure the frenship till i die!!!!pix dat im uploading is MAKEOVER pix done by elly....hahahahahahaha........here u go

1st to go is me,part dis pic aku suka...jambu plus diff!!

part nie cam siakenz!

ni kata dorg solid gold dancer!

next is Elly!!

Nitra!

Yana!

Afad!

Sani!

Hamir!

Sham Magiq!

Nora!

Abg Z & Jali

♣ Iftar ♣

2008-09-20T17:12:00.001+08:00

after weeks or mths of hardworkin to make tis iftar a sucess...at last it happen....alhamdulillah....semua berjalan dgn sempurna....not much pix were taken frm my side but here's da link dat i can share wif u all....

here u go!

http://devilishbabe.multiply.com/photos/album/130/iftar_darul_mawa_sun_14_sept_08_5.30pm

http://noralynz.multiply.com/photos/album/27/14.09.2008_-_Iftar_2008_?replies_read=6

http://ellykyra.multiply.com/photos/album/41/Iftar_2008?replies_read=18

http://joyahjambu.multiply.com/photos/album/65/September_08?replies_read=31

DoY

2008-08-29T01:54:00.000+08:00

my boo

2008-08-09T02:23:00.002+08:00

b...i really luv u....but i dunt really now wether tis r'ship gonna work out for us or not.....b....i truly luv u.....

*ku mencintaimu lebih dari apa pun....meskipun tiada satu org pun yg tau....ku mencintaimu sedalam dalam hatiku....meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku......*

♥ JeRa ♥

2008-07-27T20:26:00.001+08:00

Hitam bukan dirimu
Putih juga bukan dirimu
Semu ku melihatmu
Tak bercahaya
Seperti memudar

Cinta aku mencinta
Kamu yang aku mau
Namun tak tepat waktu
Ku sudah jera dalam percintaan

Salam hangat untuk cintamu
Aku yang kandas dan patah hati
Biarlah orang memandang lama
Aku tak mau bercinta lagi

Engkau yang dulu pernah ku cinta
Namun terlanjur kau bersamanya
Dan kau terluka oleh cintanya
Kini kau hadir kusudah
Jera

Cinta aku mencinta
Kamu yang aku mau
Namun tak tepat waktu
Ku sudah jera dalam percintaan

Salam hangat untuk cintamu
Aku yang kandas dan patah hati
Biarlah orang memandang lama
Aku tak mau bercinta lagi

Chorus 2x

Engkau yang dulu pernah ku cinta
Namun terlanjur kau bersamanya
Dan ku terluka oleh cintanya
Kini kau hadir kusudah
Jera

♣luahan ku♣

2008-07-27T20:14:00.002+08:00

aft i put up da blog wazzup...been receivin sum feedbacks....wat i can say is dat...ORG TAK MERASA ORG TAK AKAN TAHU BAGAIMANA DAN APA YG AKU LALUI....how would u feel if ur bro treat ur cousin more better n closer to her rather den u...been cryin alot thinkin of all tis....org bleh kata napa aku tak ckp ajer ngan abg aku...but hey...u dunt noe my bro...so its easy said den done...sudah lah...aku tahu mesti ada org yg akan baca blog aku nie n mungkin sampaikan pada abg dan kakak ipar aku...biarlah...ini blog aku...disini aku dpt meluahkan segalanya....try to put urself in my shoe n feels wat i feel...

mum n abg hery da ok...but still...hmmmm....lepas satu masalah selesai...masalah lain plak timbol...aku bley giler sak....on my bday eve aku nangis...on my bday itself i cried coz only mum,ayah,abg aim,cik jija n my other cousinsn sum frenz wish me...guess dat u shld noe who didnt wish me rite?takpelah...mungkin dia lupa yg dia ada adik or mungkin dia benar2 lupa bday aku...haiz...

mungkin raya tahun nie takkan seceria raya tahun dulu....segalanya telah berubah...dan tak mungkin akan kembali seperti dulu....haiz...oh god..tis is not wat i want...

ps:i tink she reads my blog as theres a link to this blog frm my frenster....i tink dat xplain y she's behaving weirdly towards me n giv me dat cold shouldr...hmmmm....if i had the chace...i would like to sit wif all my family members n luahkan segalanya...but i tink its all juz angan2 yg tak mungkin terjadi.

Cry

2008-06-15T18:29:00.002+08:00

I'm not the type to get my heart broken
I'm not the type to get upset and cry
Cause I never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye
Relationships don't get deep to me
Never got the whole in love thing
And someone can say they love me truely
But at the time it didn't mean a thing

My mind is gone, i'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears i'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

Did it happen when we first kissed
Cause it's hurting me to let it go
Maybe cause we spent so much time
And I know that it's no more
I shoulda never let you hold me baby
Maybe why i'm sad to see us apart
I didn't give to you on purpose
Gotta figure out how you stole my heart

My mind is gone, i'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears i'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

How did I get here with you, i'll never know
I never meant to let it get so, personal
After all I tried to do, stay away from loving you
I'm broken hearted, I can't let you know
And I won't let it show
You won't see me cry

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

wazzup!!!!

2008-06-12T19:12:00.003+08:00

its been awhile since i last bloggin in here...been bz wif life...due to being sooo bz,i fall sick...juz recover frm flu n sore throat...

last mth on may25,me n my bunch of AMers fren organized a camp...its a retreat camp for the unfortunate kids....a 3days 2nyte camp...i had sooo much fun wif my fren n the kids....those bunch of munchkinz can be cute n irritating at times...hahahahaha...but afterall we had lotsa fun....

life has been suck for me now...tings are not goin on the way it shld be...guys,now its a big NO for me...my priority for now is WORK n $$$$ plus mummy n ayah...this 2 most dearest ppl in my life...aku sanggup bergadai nyawa utk dorg....mataer mana2 bleh carik but not my parents....its only dat dorg dont really understand me...they still treat me like a child eventhou im goin 22 tis cuming july....bosan tau hidop mcm nie....but i noe dorg kongkong aku pon psl dorg care n luv me as im their only dotter...but at tym aku pon nak freedom seh...haiz...wat can i do...or wat shld i do...nak mengadu nasib ngan adik bradik...abg aku pon bukannyer pedulikan aku pon....abg hery? dia takkn mungkin lah nak tlg aku...dia bnyk dgr ckp bini dia and sibok ngan family sblh bini dia....abg aim?? dia tak abis2 besarkan kwn dia...knapa lah adik bradik aku tak mcm adik bradik org lain?? aku slalu impikan hidup berkeluarga yg aman damai bahagia...tapi...aku adik bradik slalu bertekak....abg hery slalu nak bantah aper yg aku ckp...walaupon aku ckp betol dia ttp nak salahkan aku jugak....bingit seh at tyms...sedih pon ader...napa lah abg2 aku tak mcm abg2 org lain....yg care bout their adik...remember bday adik dia...slalu kuar together...can talk tings out together...help one another...napa abg2 aku tak mcm tu ehk? dulu masa kecik2 aku slalu bangga bila org tnye aku ada abg ker tak...but now aku tak rasa pape pon...abg2 aku yg dulu aku bangga2kan kini ntah hilang kemana...aku rasa mcm aku nie anak tunggal plak....napa ehk? nak ngadu ngan kakak ipar...dulu bleh lah...b4 dia kawin ngan abg aku...slalu ajak aku kuar...tgk wayang...chill out...but now...she seems diff...dia dah jauh berbeza...mmg manusia akan berubah...tapi perubahan ini bukan mendtgkan kebaikan malah mendtgkan kesedihan utk aku...mungkin mmg lumrah sifat aku nie pemanja...spoilt bratz..but...aku pon ada hati dan prasaan...pernah ker abg2 aku fikir how i feel wen they call me names...ejek2 aku...kutuk aku...till i ever tink dat im not fit to be their only small sister...aku slalu cemburu melihat kemesraan org lain yg syg menyayang antara adik bradik....y cant i hav dat?? apa salah aku...i've tried to mend my ways...change my attitude...but they dont seems to care at all....smpi aku even think of staying alone like rent a room or watever...bawa diri jauh dari semua....

k lah enuff bout my family....bosan ah ckp psl dorg....lets talk bout my fren....one of the thursday early june...aku kuar jmp kwn2 aku...had lots of fun wif them...being wif them make me feel happy...aku lupa semua masaalah aku...we talk..we laugh,we dance...dat day makes me feel like im in heaven...but not wen tym roadblock lah k...hehehehe....kete bad keen tahan...n kita tersadai pat tepi jln for nearly 2hr psl tgu yan smpi to drive me,elly n nit back.really had fun dat nyte....thnx them for making my day.....n btwn me n nit...i've cleared evryting to her....lapang dada aku...aku tanak lost the frenship....atleast now she noes the truth dat between aku ngan afad is juz a fren jek....amin...lepas satu masaalah...for now im thinkin of goin for a short trip...nak hilangkan stress n cum back as a new me!!!! cant wait...tapi bila ehk?? but for now aku kene go n merayu to my aunt to let me take annual leave...hehehehe....

♥ Hanya ingin kau tahU ♥

2008-04-29T05:34:00.001+08:00

Ku telah miliki
Rasa indahnya perihku
Rasa hancurnya harapku
Kau lepas cintaku

Rasakan abadi
Sekalipun kau mengerti
Sekalipun kau pahami
Ku pikir ku salah mengertimu

Aku hanya ingin kau tahu
Besarnya cintaku
Tingginya khayalku bersamamu

Tuk lalui waktu yang tersisa kini
Di setiap hariku
Di sisa akhir nafas hidupku

ow wooo wo wo wo

Walaupun semua hanya ada dalam mimpiku
Hanya ada dalam anganku
Melewati hidup

Rasakan abadi
Sekalipun kau mengerti
Sekalipun kau pahami
Ku pikir ku salah mengertimu

Aku hanya ingin kau tahu
Besarnya cintaku
Tingginya khayalku bersamamu

Tuk lalui waktu yang tersisa kini
Di setiap hariku
Di sisa akhir nafas hidupku

Aku hanya ingin kau tahu
Besarnya cintaku
Tingginya khayalku bersamamu

Tuk lalui waktu yang tersisa kini
Di setiap hariku
Di sisa akhir nafas hidupku

ow wooo wo wo wo wo wo wo wo wo

♥ Mengenangmu ♥

2008-04-29T05:31:00.000+08:00

Takkan pernah habis air mataku
bila kuingat tentang dirimu
mungkin hanya kau yang tau
mengapa sampai saat ini
kumasih sendiri

adakah disana kau rindu padaku
meski kita kini ada di dunia berbeda
bila masih mungkin
waktu kuputar
kan kutunggu dirimu

Biarlah kusimpan
sampai nanti aku
kan ada disana
tenanglah dirimu dalam kedamaian
ingatlah cintaku
kau tak terlihat lagi
namun cintamu abadi

mengenangmu♠kerispatih

♥ Ingkar ♥

2008-04-29T05:29:00.000+08:00

Disaat cinta tercipta
Semestinya ku merasa
Dikala hasrat menjalar
Semestinya ku berbalas

Dari hati kini ku sedari
Tak semestinya ku berkasih
jJika hati tak dapat berbahgi
Baiknya rasa itu tersimpan dalam

Semestinya aku mencinta
Seharusnya aku menyayang
Oh maafkan jika semua ini yang ku berikan untukmu

Dari hati kini ku sedari
Tak semestinya ku berkasih
Jika hati tak dapat berbahgi
Baiknya rasa itu tersimpan dalam

Ulang 2x

Semestinya aku mencinta
Seharusnya aku menyayang
Oh maafkan jika semua ini yang ku berikan untukmu

Dari hati kini ku sedari
Tak semestinya ku berkasih

Ingkar♠Bunga Cinta Lestari

♥

2008-04-29T00:50:00.002+08:00

-oh tuhan ku cinta dia...berikanlah aku hidup...takkan kusakiti dia...hukum aku bila terjadi...-

y muz it happen wen i like dat sumone ehk??? am i fated not to be loved by anyone?? i started to miss him badly...

waddaa!!!

2008-04-14T00:06:00.003+08:00

haiz....tak tau lah apa nak type...bila tadi pat msn kak teanee bobal psl flashback...aku pon terflashback gak...remember those 3guys dat i ever blog bout...lets start wif Zali...dunno wat has happen...we r driftin apart...im kindda bored wif him...asal bobal mesti kuar cita psl duit...skali dua kali tu bleh lah tlg tapi lau dah slalu...parah lah aku...bosan sak lau asik bobal psl short of cash...fed up!!! ya si Ashraf plak...madang MIA jek...malas lah aku org nie mcm...bila kol mcm yeye jek miss lah syg lah...benci aku! i hate guys who gave false hope. yg Lee plak...ntah lah...pon MIA...aku dah malas/carik org2 yg MIA nie mcm...menyampah!!!! skarang nie aku sibok kan diri aku dgn keje keje keje n keje...n oso help mummy wif preparation for kak dik's wedding on tis 26 apr.da fed up wif guys...semua sama jek...mmg aku bnyk blog psl jantan...coz aku mmg bnyk kwn laki as i dont really trust gals sngt...my gf yg paling rapat pon tu kenal dari me p2 seh..till now masih kwn...they totally understand me n we trust each other.k lah...tats it for now...i nid a break!

♣ Rambutku Mahkotaku ♣

2008-04-02T00:51:00.004+08:00

lepas geram kat rambut....hahahahahaha

B4 cut hair

i braid my hair

aftermath of braiding

after cut fringe

♣ hola ♣

2008-04-01T23:56:00.004+08:00

wah....its been awhile since i last blog in here...akak bz noh!!! hahahaha....been doin good so far since he left...as well doin sum thinkin bout y all tis happen...mungkin ada hikmah disebalik semua nie...syukur aku tak terlalu leka dibuai oleh kata2 manis nya....biarlah apa yg dia nak kata kat aku skalipon i dont giv a damn! may he be happy...walaupon aku masih syg kat dia...tapi rasa sakit hati aku nie dah mengatasi rasa syg aku pat dia...biarlah...prefer it dat way.... k lah kita tglkan psl dia....lets talk bout me....

im happy wif lyf now...semua org2 yg aku syg ada disekelilingku...tapi...kenapa org yg aku tak pernah mengharap utk menyayangi aku...bleh syg n care 4 me ehk? theres ZALI..duda anak 2...aku kenal dia kat tagged n AM.he care n say dat he luv me...tapi....ntah lah...den cum LEE..bdk AM yg pernah gadoh ngan aku dulu but now cums back to me...hint me bout luvship...(not again!!!)..but dont really show it(slamat aku!!).den cum ASHRAF...pon bdk AM...mixed of pakistani...always bz..but still...he's d one dat always hear my prob wif family...a hubby material kindda guy! i loike!! hahahaha...but still im confused as usual...but now...i'll juz let mummy choose for me...let her decide....but....aku tkut takle trime takdir jek...hahahahaha....waddda!!!

malas lah nak pikir bnyk2....i juz lead life as it is....tempuh jek hari esok yg akan dtg...hehehehe....coz i dont noe wats in store for me kan....so juz sit back n relax....tak payah aku nak kusutkan kpala otak aku lagik...leceh...nnt end up pasrah n kecewa lagik...boring sak......k lah...till den...will update more!!!!!!

thnx for everything dearest..

2008-03-20T23:41:00.004+08:00

bende yg slama nie aku sangkakan akan terjadi akhirnya jadi jugak....dearest has walk out of my life...thnx to him...

since dat confession...he seems to MIA n since dat i suspect sumting is not rite....i dont xpect him to reciprocate my feelings but atleast dont giv me false hopes...i juz hate liars~!! i have misjudge sumone again...

he called me on 19mar @ 0912hrs to accuse me sumting i didnt do n dat is telling all ppl arnd me dat im attached to him...for god sake i didnt even do dat...i admit dat i do blog bout me liking him but not to d extend till tellin evryone dat we attached already...i did make a confession to him but i didnt get any ans so i juz kip a hush2 bout it like wat he wants it to be...dahlah tuduh me mcm2...he also told me dat he's seeing sumone,attached to sumone n ask me not to bother callin or msgin him anymore coz he'll be cancellin his num to prove his luv for his gf.

i was like WTF...y are u accusin me of sumting i didnt do...n y u lied to me wen i make a confession to u...for my whole life i never confess to anyone dat i luv dat sumone so much...but wen i did...i was treated tis way...wat a luck...summore i confess to him on feb29!!!! argh!!!!!!!! maybe another leap year den i can confess again kot...actually i dont hope much frm dat confession coz i noe my limit...he is good looking but im not...im big fat n ugly...but atleast..if he didnt like me or juz treat me as a fren...juz tell me d truth...theres no nid for him to giv me false hope...n make me hopin for him to be mine...how stupid n naive of me...

oh god...y muz i be the one to face all this hurdles...pelihara lah diriku dari kejahilan dunia ya allah...moga segera aku dilepaskan dari belenggu ini ya allah sesungguhnya engkau maha adil dan mengetahui...

HATE

2008-03-17T20:48:00.000+08:00

HATE DAT I LUV U SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH!!!!!!!!

~♥~missin my dearest~♥~

2008-03-08T00:34:00.003+08:00

7 march is dearest bday....wish him kindda late thou coz i've been sleepin the whole day due to my flu n dizziness...he called me earlier wen i was talkin to my aunt regardin work matters...but wen i tried to call him back...tak angkat plak...haiz...napa seh...i tot he was ok already coz lately he got no mood to talk coz bz n pissed off wif his werk...n i ask him to contact me wen he's ok...so wen i received his call..i assume dat he's ok oreadi but ntah lah...susah nak ckp ah...eventhou im unpredictable kindda person...but he's more n very unpredictable coz i hardly can predict him...sumtime he's sooo luving n caring n sumtime he cAN juz ignored me...n dats wat i hate most!being ignored by him...haiz....actually...after confessin to him on 29/02/2008...

my conscience is kindda clear...but not rite now...im juz confuse...i wont force him to accept me coz i noe my limit n standard...he's tall handsome n gd luking but me..im juz a plain jane...da mcm enggang dan pipit...if he cant reciprocate it..its ok...we juz be frenz...coz dats wat i cherish most....but...ntah lah...rite now im being ignored so i dont noe wats the outcome...his rply to me was we kip it a hush2 for now...im ok wif it...but ntah lah...i always feel restless wenever i didnt receive his smses or calls...i juz miss him alot!!!!

~♠~ 7 Deadly Sins ~♠~

2008-03-04T07:40:00.000+08:00

1- VANITY

excessive pride in one's appearance, qualities, abilities, achievements etc.; character or quality of being vain; conceit

2- SLOTH

habitual disinclination to exertion; indolence; laziness.

3- ENVY

a feeling of discontent or covetousness with regard to another's advantages, success, possessions, etc.

4- AVARICE

extreme greed for material wealth

5- GLUTTONY

habitual eating to excess

6- LUST

intense sexual desire or appetite

7- WRATH

vengeance or punishment as the consequence of anger.

source from-"The Workbook of The 7 Deadly Sins"

http://anakmelayu.com/blogs/blog.php?id=89058

~♥~ Kasih Mengapa ~♥~

2008-02-29T23:40:00.002+08:00

Ku Terperangkap Dalam Kabus Yang Gelap
Tak Dapat Bayangkan Diriku Tanpamu
Semakin Hari Ku Semakin Rindu
Hati Yang Terguris Kini Jadi Sendu

Hati Tutup Entah Kerna Apa
Agak Ku Salah Langkah,Tidak Pernah Sabar
Cuba Hendak Mengerti Jawapan Diberi
Filosofi Cinta Sudah Pudarkan Diri
Tidak Akan Sekali Menyusul Kembali
Cinta Yang Diberi Sanggup Kau Menyakiti
Jiwa Raga Senyuman Diberi
Memori Yang Indah Akan Tetap Ku Ingati

Kini Ku Sedar Siapa Diriku Ini
Bayanganmu Ku Sering Termimpi-mimpi
Kata-katamu Hanya Manis Di Bibir
Usah Buat Ku Sering Terfikir-fikir

Oh Mengapa Cinta Kita Berubah
Oh Mengapa Cinta Kita Didusta

Ku Terperangkap Dalam Kabus Yang Gelap
Tak Dapat Bayangkan Diriku Tanpamu
Semakin Hari Ku Semakin Rindu
Hati Yang Terguris Kini Jadi Sendu

Ingin Ku Merehatkan Diri Dari Segala Fikiran
Cuba Menghebarkan Pesanan Yang Bernas Lagi Bistari
Cinta Itu Buta Tapi Tidak Murah Tetap Dilupakan Remaja
Mengapa Dipersiakan Kalau Tidak Rela
Ini Bukan Permainan Ibarat Boneka
Ku Jujur Ku Teguh Tetap Ikhlas Di hati
Tapi Bukan Bayangmu Yang Kudekapi

Oh Mengapa Cinta Kita Berubah
Oh Mengapa Cinta Kita Didusta

Kini Ku Sedar Siapa Diriku Ini
Bayanganmu Ku Sering Termimpi-mimpi
Kata-katamu Hanya Manis Di Bibir
Usah Buat Ku Sering Terfikir-fikir

~♠~ Rauzan Ft Urban Sensation & Rozie ~♠~

♥ mengapa??? ♥

2008-02-21T00:59:00.001+08:00

persahabatan yg dikau hulurkan padaku
ku terima seikhlasnya...
tiada janji manis atau kata2 sakti yg terungkap...
ku akui kadangkala ku sedikit kasar terhadapmu
tapi sesungguhnya tiada niatku utk mengasarimu
ku hanya tidak ingin diriku jatuh cinta lagi...
tapi perilakumu membuatku keliru...
kau sentiasa mengambil berat tentangku...
menasihatiku pabila ku sedang dilanda masaalah...
berada disisiku pabila ku perlukan tempat mengadu...

aku keliru....
ku senantiasa merinduimu pabila kau tiada....
ku tak mengerti apa yg terjadi...
adakah aku telah jatuh cinta lagik???
Oh tidak!!!!
ku tak ingin terluka dan dilukai lagi....
cukup sudah leka parah yg ku alami....
tidak ku inginkan kelukaan menyinggahi hatiku lagi...
ku tak rela....

oh tuhan....andainya dia utkku....
kau tunjukkan lah padaku....
tapi seandainya dia hanya ditakdirkan sebagai temanku...
jadikan ia teman hingga akhir hayatku....

~pryncess emo mode~

dearest goin away....

2008-02-21T00:45:00.002+08:00

got news from dearest....he's goin away on 31mar....he's goin to Taiwan if im not mistaken...n will only be back in May...haiz....dats really long sia....gonna miss him lots!!! even now im missing him oreadi....last met him wen we watch sweeny todd's movie...

must he go away??? but y do i care sooo much for him??? he's juz a fren...a fren dat i can rely on...but y am i feeling tis way???

~pryncess confused~

Apple of my eyes

2008-02-16T19:51:00.006+08:00

Juz out from Mummy's tummy

Makeover @ hospital

37days Old

the new addition to our family....Dotter of my bro...Abg Hery n wifey Kak Nora... the apple of our eyes.... NAYLA HUMAIRAH BTE MUHAMMAD SAFFARI.Born @ 2159hrs on 11th JAN 2008..she share the same bday as Siti Nurhaliza...hahahah....

he's my dearest???

2008-02-16T16:44:00.003+08:00

dearest is on outfield training again....and on Vday he still on outfield...miss him actually....hahahahahaha....althou he's nobody to me...but he's the most dearest to me now...he care for me lots...wen i got probs...he's always dere to giv me piece of advice..he's da one dat i always turn to apart frm cuzzie teanee n cuzzie ddq...dont noe y we can "click" easily eventhou we juz gotta noe each other..it seems like we hav known for years...

on our first date...we went for a moviee...watched body#19...although the movie kindda lame...but its scary...hhahaha...and i always grab hold of his arm damn tight till i leave a scar i tink...hahahaha....after da movie he send me to werk...in da mrt we talk more bout each other...he send me till my office lobby coz i told him dat i dont dare to walk alone....hahahahaha...as if...

he's such a nice guy...happy to be fren wif him...hopefully this frenship of us will last....but!!!! theres one thing im afraid of is me...im easy to fall in luv...n its really suck if i fall for him....i dont wanna lost the frenship...if he reciprocate my feeling ok lah kan....hahahaha....but afterall i do treasure tis frenship....miss u dearest....back home soon aitez!

♥ Inconsolable♥

2008-02-16T16:39:00.000+08:00

Backstreet Boys Lyrics
Inconsolable Lyrics

Dear Diary....

2008-02-13T23:13:00.002+08:00

Dear diary ku ingin cerita kepadamu
Tentangnya yang dulu singgah di hatiku
Sejak itu hidupku jadi bahagia
Karena dia slalu ada di hidupku oh

Tapi kini dia menghilang
Dan tak tahu entah (berada) dimana
Diaryku ku merindukannya
Pujaanku engkau ada dimana

Telah habis air mata
Tak sekedar kata-kata telah ku curahkan
Harusnya aku berlari sampai ke ujung dunia
Untuk mencarinya oh

Tapi kini dia menghilang
Dan tak tahu entah (berada) dimana
Diaryku ku merindukannya
Pujaanku engkau ada dimana

Tapi kini dia menghilang
Dan tak tahu entah (berada) dimana
Diaryku ku merindukannya
Pujaanku, pujaanku, pujaanku engkau ada dimana

The 10 Commandments of Marriage

2008-02-12T21:53:00.000+08:00

ok...eventhough im not yet married....these commandments seems to be true rite???

Commandment 1
Marriages are made in heaven.
But then again, so is thunder and lightning.

Commandment 2
If you want your wife to listen and pay strict attention to every word you say,
talk in your sleep.

Commandment 3
Marriage is grand -- and divorce is at least! 100 grand!

Commandment 4
Married life is very frustrating.
In the first year of marriage, the man speaks and the woman listens.
In the second year, the woman speaks and the man listens.
In the third year, they both speak and the neighbours listen.

Commandment 5
When a man opens the door of his car for his wife, you can be sure of one thing:
Either the car is new or the wife is.

Commandment 6
Marriage is when a man and woman become as one;
The trouble starts when they try to decide which one.

Commandment 7
Before marriage, a man will lie awake all night thinking about something you say.
After marriage, he will fall asleep before you finish.

Commandment 8
Every man wants a wife who is beautiful, understanding, economical, and a good cook.
But the law allows only one wife.

Commandment 9
Marriage and love are purely a matter of chemistry.
That is why one treats the other like toxic waste.

Commandment 10
A man is incomplete until he is married. After that, he is finished.

BONUS COMMANDMENT STORY
A long married couple came upon a wishing well. The wife leaned over, made a wish and threw in a penny.
The husband decided to make a wish too. But he leaned over too much, fell into the well, and drowned.
The wife was stunned for a moment, but then smiled, 'It really works!'

my 1st tym...

2008-02-09T23:41:00.000+08:00

there always a first time for evryting rite....and my first tym is yesterday me went to club at O bar wif kak diq,emilyn and eric....never went to clubbing before...so yterday was my 1st tym...

me,eric,lyn

at first they juz wanna chill out at clarke quay...but den suddenly wen we reached clarke quay...they suggest to go clubbing...i was like...wth seh...kata nak chill jek...end up frm clarke quay naik cab pi mohd sultan.

lyn,kak diq

after paying for the cover charge...kita msuk den we find a place ah...the place was pack wif "sarah jumbo"..hahahaha...its juz my luck maybe...the ambience was nice...the song played was superb...was njoyin my time den suddenly dorg tarik pi dance floor...dont really dance lah but juz sway my body to da music....kak diq n emilyn was having fun dancing...

Eric,Lyn,Kak Diq

tgh gerek2 joget skali ada gadoh plak....malas nak stay lama 230 kita blah....kuar pi liang court mkn den alik....smpi umah kepenatan tros tido.

Da Babes

so far my 1st tym go clubbin ok lah...but hopefully not addicted...once in awhile ok lah...lau slalu...bley bankrupt seh.....hehehehehehe.....

my wednesday....

2008-02-07T23:34:00.000+08:00

have a gd day out y'day...went out to go majlis pernikahan SyaitAM Ghostrider.went dere wif kak zura n hubby...after dat follow her to watch her hubby jamming....1st tym experience seh...hahahahhaa.....bleh pekak telinga beta...den elly came n join us there...after dat me go home n mit khaliq at mac.talk n talk til didnt realise dat its oredi 2am...no wonder he kip on yawning...hahahahaha....went home...msg my dearest ones den went to slp....

My date wif cuzzie

2008-02-06T07:22:00.000+08:00

Its the 6th days for the mth of Feb...been down with flu for the past few days....haiz...afterall...single life is so much more happier....been xchangin some thots wif fellow acquaintance in am...we talked bout life...werk...past xperience in luv....n oso bout am being the main source to look for a fling...hahahahaha.....its funny but true....

while havin dinner wif cuzin teanee on monday evening...we talked bout R,her fren whom she got crush on....from my point of view is dat..R doesnt need to hide bout his marital status....wats the point of hiding it if he only regards cuzzie as a normal fren..Coz from wat i see is dat...he's kindda childish thou...there's once ware he merajuk as cuzzie doesnt wanna attend his daddy's suprise bday party,end up cuzzie giv in and went to da party.From wat i see is dat cuzzie not only hav crush on him but tend to like him alot n back him up wenever i talk shit bout him...noein me...i always said it out if i dont like rite....on dat same evening,wen i reach my werkplace n log in to msn...me chat wif cuzzie n suddenly she gave me a link to see....its R's small sister's bloggie....n guez wat??? theres a pic of R n his gf!!!!!!n sorry to say....da gf.....hmmmmmm.....*evil smile*

wat i can say is dat...i tink cuzzie is much more better den her....hahahahaha.....sorry cuzzie...but tis is da fact dat i cant denied....u r indeed the sweetest person i ever know....pity u dat he didnt see dat....haiz....but cuzzie...dont worry...one day u'll get sumone better den him n hopefully he can mend ur shattered heart eversince d day arwah left u....wishin u all the best in life...dont ya worry...if he's really sincere in the frenship...he will confess evryting to u sooner or later....

luv u my dearest cuzzie....

a fresh start

2008-01-15T02:33:00.000+08:00

A fresh start for a new year.....for goodness sake...im back to single..happy seh wen im alone...can do watever i want...n now i can totally tumpukan perhatian towards family....my future can wait mah....family is more important to me now....since mummy admitted....i've been emotionally breakdown for quite few times....but dat doesnt stop me to stay strong....demi mummy n ayah...i hav to be strong....they nid me....for now...i dunno wat to type anymore...mata dah mengantok giler nie...heheheheh....will update more k....

LoVe

2007-12-21T07:51:00.000+08:00

Love isnt bout finding someone U cant live with;
Its bout finding someone U cant live without.

Cintaku Dipermainkan

2007-12-21T07:38:00.000+08:00

jumpe lagu nie kat youtube...nice song indeed...yg nyanyi pon suare not bad....ita really a meaningful song....

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Tidakkah kau tahu sayang betapa ku sayang padamu..
Engkaulah insan yang ku cinta untuk selama-lamanya..
Tapi disebaliknya apa yang kau berikan padaku kasih dan sayang kini tiada.. pilunya di hatiku..

Kini kau berubah.. kau tak seperti dulu..
Mengapa sayang mengapa engkau jadi begini..?
Kini aku menyesal menyintaimu kerana cintaku dipermainkan secukup-cukupnya..
Hampalah hatiku dalam percintaan..
Engkau membuatku tidak mahu bercinta lagi sayang..
Mengapa engkau permainkan cinta yang sudah kita bina..?
Kini kalau tak sayang lagi berterus terang padaku..
Janganlah engkau menyiksaku..
Tak sanggup lagi ku menanggung dugaan cinta yang kau beri terhadap diriku..
Sakitnya hatiku sampainya hatimu.... kau tidak melayan diriku seperti dahulu..
Cuba kau rasakan apa yang telah ku rasa.. kini pasti kau juga akan menyesali cintaku..

Kini airmata pun mula mengalir..
Engkau masih belum berubah.. engkau tetap sama..
Kini aku meminta maaf kerana hatiku dah tertutup untuk dirimu sayang..
Lepaskan aku, bebaskan aku.. pergilah sayang, jangan kembali lagi...
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ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-12-08T09:44:00.000+08:00

I MISS MY BABY!!!!!!!!!
Y CANT HE UNDERSTAND ME...???
LONELINESS IS KILLING ME NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FUCK OFF!!!!!

2007-12-02T20:32:00.000+08:00

p/s:the blog below contain vulgarities...n sememangnyer tak sepatutnyer dtg dari aku....haiz....nie semua angkara marah nyer pasal....

hey bitch!!!!!!

yes u....im calling u bitch!!!! ko ingat aku heran sngt ker ngan jantan ko tu??? hei....sesungguhnyer aku tak heran k....ko bleh rilex sua....aku rasa jantan ko tu kenal aku lebih dulu dari kau gak nyer....stooopid bitch...doesnt mean calling each other dear...means aku menggatal ngan jantan kau ah k...Puhleseeee....!!!!! we noe each other dah lama...dats y tu mcm bodoh!!! jantan kau sendirik kadang2 panggil aku b...eh dulu aku pon dah pernah date dia lah...so now aku ngan dia kwn jek....aku pon ade mataer nak jaga lah bodoh.....atleast my baby is better off den him!!!lu bleh rileks sua bitch....wa tak heran ngan lu peh jantan....i got my man to be proud off!!!! arshhole!!!! n...prior to ur msg....ko ckp aper...takder konek lain ehk???? i got my man's dick to take care off....so buzz off bitch!!!!

Thnx for ur luv Hunn....

2007-12-02T18:41:00.000+08:00

261007 marks our 2mths dating....thnx hunn for the tym dat we spend together....its really meaningful to me eventhou for awhile..as u hav to go to work...Hunn..luv u alot dear...i was so shock wen u called me up to mit me....hahahahaha....i tot dat im dreaming...but no...my baby did call me to mit me....im sooooo happy....we mit up at ur place...spend tym together...im so happy to c u dear....i dont tink im gonna giv out to u the letter dat i type out wen im super sad.....hope u understand wat i mean hunn....here d letter goes...

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Saturday 24/11/2007

Dear Wandy….

Its been a while since we met each other…just hope dat u r doing fine with ur life…even though I’m ur GF…I had never feel like one…u were so bz…my calls were ignored n all my smses were unrplyed by u….y dear…??Sometym I tink dat we r strangers….y must im d only one have to understand u?y u had never understand me??can u try to understand me n my feelings? I don’t want tis relationship to break…I sayang n cintakan u tapi pernah kah u meluahkan kata2 itu pada i??

Sayang…hari2 yg I lalui tak pernah bhagia…I slalu fikir…adakah ini balasan tuhan pada i???Balasan kerana menyakiti hati org lain…Syg…I tak sanggup lagik dibiarkan begini…I feel abandoned…diri I nie seperti tak pernah dihargai oleh u…apa salah I dear??Setiap mlm I menangis sendirian…memikirkan sejauh mana tis relationship will last…I don’t wanna break up wif u…I luv u wholeheartedly….u were there for me wen Ermie left me…but wen we were together in a relationship…u were always bz…I don’t noe y….am I too controlling??but as far as I noe I had never control u…im being understanding…I noe dat u r werkin in a bar n u’ll be bz all the tym…but dear….org lain pon keje…mcm mana sibok skalipon dorg tetap ada masa utk berjmpe GF dorg…did u try to act bz or u running away frm me….if its true mcm mana yg my fren ckp yg mungkin u ade gal lain….trus terang dgn I dear….jika dia dpt membahagia kan u…I rela melepaskan u…walaupon hati I akan terluka…I rela demi kebahagiaan u….Dear…I terlalu rindukan u…I miss ur touch…ur hug…I wanna be in ur arms now…mungkin org akan kata I giler…baru sebulan lebih dah syg gile babi…but trust me….once I luv dat sumone…I’ll always luv dat person…I berikan segalanya utk org yg I sayang…So far…im the only one who always msg or kol u…tak pernah skali pon I dpt sms dari u bertnyer kabar i…mmg I tak pernah mengharap tapi sebagai GF u I akan rasa gembira dan bahagia biler u wat mcm tu walaupon I tau u tak akan buat…Dear…kadang kala I sendiri merasa cemburu melihat kemesraan kak dik dgn abg faizal….dorg tu slalu bersama…atleast I’ll hear dat abg faizal will call him atleast once or d least msg…tapi i…I tak pernah rasa semua tu dgn u….i hilang tmpt bermanja…tmpt I kongsi masaalah i…kenapa dear….y are we driftin apart..???

Dear….i dah penat nak fakir tentang semua nie….im tired of crying n im sick of trying….Biarlah apa org nak kata…cinta I ttp pada u dan I akan tetap setia pada u….biaralh masa menentukan segalanya…I hanya berserah pada takdir….sekiranya ada jodoh kita….pasti suatu hari u akan mengerti dan memahami perasaan i….dan saat itu u akan tahu betapa I cintakan u…I tak akan putuskan hubungan ini…biar I sengsara dan merindui u selalu…kerana I tau cinta I hanya utk u….mengertilah syg bahawa cintaku hanyalah utkmu….tiada duanya….aku sayang kepadamu sepenuh jiwaku….aku akan terus menanti dan setia menanti agar pintu hatimu terbuka utk mengerti perasaan ku padamu….hanya kau dihatiku…

Happy 2mths Anniversary To My Dearest Wandy…
I will always luv u….
Only wif u my luv grows….

Hannah & Wandy
26/09/2007

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its 2 days b4 i mit u up hunn....i was soooo down dat day n decided to type it out to release my sadness....kindda feeling thou the letter rite....wakakakakakak....tis is me....i may look garang but actually lembik nak mampus n cenggeng....hunn....luv u alot....cant wait to mit u on our off day....luv u hunn....

,,,

2007-11-20T22:27:00.000+08:00

~ Anak punai anak merbah...
Hinggap ditunggak mencarik sarang...
Anak sungai lagikan berubah...
Inikan pula hati orang...~

~Banyak lah org menanam pulut...
Saya seorg menanam padi...
Banyaklah org karam dilaut...
Saya seorg karam dihati...~

untitled!

2007-11-20T22:03:00.000+08:00

miss my baby so much....its been 3wk since i last met him....haiz....wat gonna happen to our r'ship....no calls to each other...he's been so bz n got no tym for me...so sad actually....mcm matair hanya pada nama jek....

haiz....i kip tellin myself not to get bored in this r'ship....coz im easily get bored wif certain r'ship....haiz...i wanna kip tis r'ship for long coz i luv him....but...did he luv me the way i luv him?

i really hope dat he actually tinks bout my feelings too...eventhou both of us bz...i still took da initiative to call or msg him despite my buzziness...but he?no point grumble bout it...haiz...am i being selfish n not da understanding type??y must it always be me whohave to understand others...y cant they try to understand me??i always end up in da losing end....i dont wanna end up breakin up wif him....i've had enuff of breakin ups....had enuff of heartbreakin period....i juz hope dat im gonna pass of this phase smoothly....

baby...cant u try to understand me???y muz it always me???pls baby...we nid to talk tings out....theres communication breakdown between us...im tired of all tis...waiting and missing u goin to drive me mad dear....

hmmmmm

2007-11-15T01:27:00.000+08:00

~ KELIP KELIP DISANGKA API...
KALAU API MANA PUNTUNGNYA...
HILANG GHAIB DISANGKA MATI...
KALAU MATI MANA KUBURNYA...~

~ APA DIHARAP PADA PADI....
TINGGI RUMPUT DARI RUANG....
APA DIHARAP PADA KAMI....
BUDI TIADA BAHASA PON KURANG....~

~Buah berangan masak nya merah...
Kelekati di dalam perahu...
Luka yang merah nampak berdarah...
Luka di hati siapa yang tahu...~

~Baik baik belayar rakit...
Tali biar panjang sama...
kasih syg bukan sedikit...
kalau boleh ingin mati bersama...~

miss ma baby!!!!!!!

2007-10-12T07:29:00.000+08:00

miss him soooooo much....he been so bz lately....miss evryting bout him....
honey dont ya miss me tooo???wakakakakakaaka.....hearts him alot sia....
guez wat he said those 3 magic words!!!!!!!!! argh!!!!!!!!
im melting.....hahahahahhaha.....but he added another word lah....
BUT!!!!!!!! he only said it in sms...wanna hear it rite frm his mouth....
wen he said "i love u baby"...oh gosh....if he really gonna said dat infront of me...i tink im gonna pengsan seh....hahahahaha......

cant wait for my SyaitAM sista's wedding as dats wen he gonna follow me for the 1st tym mittin all my SyaitAM bro n sis....tot of askin him to wear same color...will have to tink bout it n me too have to find a proper baju dat suitable for weddin as we r goin wif his bike...u cant xpect me wear kebaya ride on bike rite....so d buruk seh....

crazy isnt it??? falling in luv so shortly after being dump...maybe its a bit crazy but u cant stop if love cuming ur way rite???isnt it???but for now...im still fobia to get committed...do still have feelings for emi thou....for i trully luv him...but i noe dat i dont hav any place in his heart rite frm d start...argh!!!! to hell wif it...he's happy now wif nurul his fiancee....pray for their happiness....may god bless dem wif lotsa kidz....

since eidul fitri is cumin tomoro i wish all muslims who read ma bloggie...minal aidil walfaizin walmakbulin,selamat hari raya maaf zahir batin!!!

for now im gonna carry on and missin ma baby....he's d rhythm of ma heart...hearts him alot!!!!

Kekasih Gelapku.....

2007-10-02T19:59:00.000+08:00

As time goes by....i still tink bout him....eventhough i noe dat i have to move on....i do miss him at times....haiz....but im lucky to have didi by my side all the tym wen i nid him.... mungkin kerana terlalu rapat sehinggakan aku sendiri tertarik padanya....fall head over heel for him....he's very nice...he got dat bad boy look n dats wat i loikeeee!!!!!!! hahahahahahaha.....am i crazy or wat.....but seriously i thnx him for bein there....he's always der wen i nid to talk...he's sooo caring....i really like him....i ever sent him a msg wich d rply dat i received from him makes me soooooooo delighted n happy.....am i in love wif him????

Didi aka xxX DeeLaRoCa Xxx,thnx for being who u r n thnx for bein there for me....i miss u lots since dat day.....

Ku mencintaimu, lebih dari apapun
Meskipun tiada satu orang pun yang tahu
Ku mencintaimu, sedalam-dalam hatiku
Meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku...

Ku tahu ku takkan selalu ada untukmu
Disaat engkau merindukan diriku
Ku tahu ku takkan bisa memberikanmu waktu
Yang panjang dalam hidupku

Yakinlah bahwa engkau adalah cintaku
Yang ku cari selama ini dalam hidupku
Dan hanya padamu ku berikan sisa cintaku
Yang panjang dalam hidupku...

Ku mencintaimu, lebih dari apapun
Meskipun tiada satu orang pun yang tahu
Ku mencintaimu, sedalam-dalam hatiku
Meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku...

Ku mencintaimu, lebih dari apapun
Meskipun tiada satu orang pun yang tahu
Ku mencintaimu, sedalam-dalam hatiku
Meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku...

Ooh...

Ku mencintaimu, lebih dari apapun
Meskipun tiada satu orang pun yang tahu
Ku mencintaimu, sedalam-dalam hatiku
Meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku...

Biarkan Aku....

2007-09-20T07:37:00.000+08:00

adakah in kepastian yg ku nanti???

kenapa kini masih belum terbukti???

adakah ini kepastian yg ku rindui???

kenapa kini pergi menghilang diri??

adakah aku hanya bermimpi disiang hari???

atau pun mengejar bayangan yang tak pasti???

biarkan aku terus bermimpi...

daripada harus bangun utk disakiti.....

biarkan aku berlari...

berlari mencapai pelangi...

ku tak ingin terus disakiti....

biarkan aku berdiri sendiri....

pergilah dikau bersama dia yg kau cintai....

tinggalkan aku sendirian disini...

jgn lah kau merayuku lagi....

kau tak pantas utk kucintai...

biar kini aku pergi...

pergi membawa duka dihatiku ini...

Sejarah Cinta Kita

2007-09-07T03:12:00.001+08:00

Selamat tinggal sayang relakan ku pergi
Meninggalkan dirimu yang ku kasihi
Bukan niat ku sayang membuat kau terluka
Namun terpaksa

Sejarah cinta kita tak mungkin berulang
Walaupun kasih kita seluas lautan
Kita hanya merancang Tuhan menentukan
Tak kesampaian

Apa lagi hendak dikata
Memang itu lumrahnya dunia
Setiap yang bercinta pastikan merasa
Suka dan duka

Apa lagi hendak dipaksa
Jodoh kita telah pun tiada
Kita yang berkasih
Kita yang merintih
Hati tersiksa

Memang benar kata pujangga
Purnama indah usah dipuja
Kelak jiwa akan terluka
Meratap hiba

Ikutlah pilihan keluargamu
Yang menentukan jodoh buatmu
Diri ini usah ingat lagi
Biar ku pergi

WTH!!!!!

2007-09-05T01:57:00.000+08:00

hei u....who r u to tell me wat i can do or wat i cant....tis is my blog ok....suka hati aku ah nak tulis aper pon....aku tak pakai jari kau per nak type...aku tau ko tak suker kan....tu ko nyer pasal k.aku sendiri ade letak pat aku nyer intro per lau tak suka pls refrain urself from reading further...

lau ko nak ckp tentang perasaan/feelings....aku rasa antara kiter aku yg paling rabak k....u got him rite...aku dpt ape???dpt segala tipu daya n kata2 manis dia???!!put urself in my shoe lah k...ape ko akan rasa lau ko matair dgn jantan,ni jantan main tymer,end up dia tunang pon tak blang ko.sakit tak hati kau???hancur tak hati kau???ko tak kene babtu ko tak merasa kan....

k lah....senang ckp ehk....aku tak ganggu hidop kau,kau jgn nak ganggu aku peh hidop k...get outta my life....coz i never invite u into my life...u came into d picture bcoz of dat beautiful liar played his game very well...so now aku rasa u can go on wif him....aku tkkn ganggu hidop korg k....so jgn ganggu hidop aku....thnx alot....appreciate dat.

~quoted frm a fren bloggie~
"ini blog sekadar untuk meluahkan perasaan. Kalau tak boley terima, maknanya, apa yang aku tulis nie, ada kebenarannya lah. Buat apa nak marah2? Hidup hanya sekali. Malaikat pun tanya dalam kubur sekali jugak. Kalau kurang senang, jangan lah baca. Tak diundang pun. Dah lah nak mencuri-cri baca isi hati orang, ada hati pulak tu nak mengamuk."

Jiwangzzz

2007-09-04T06:02:00.001+08:00

lagu lagu jiwang mengusik kalbu.....Layankan je lah.....

untitled

2007-09-04T05:44:00.000+08:00

im moving on....am i??was so mad...tak sangka selama nie aku keen tipu hollow2 nie mcm...nape aku takle nak tangkap ehk...patut lah slama nie lau ajak dia kuar punya lah susah....nak kuar tym mlm jek...rupa2nyer tkut tunang tau...plabuto btol....bingit sak aku....dia senang jek ckp lupakan dia n carry on life w/o dia...dia ingat senang per...ni lah jantan...pat janji manis...gula pon kalah....biler sua...sanjung n puji melambong...tapi biler dah taknak...dia uat cam tissue jek...da buang ingus den throw away...NABEY ah...to me aku lau syg seseorg...its really hard for me to forget him seh....nape ehk...aku tak paham ah...dia mcm tak kisah gitu...he kip hurtin me over n over again....lau lah abg aku tau pasal nie....mati sak dia....tapi lau bleh aku tknk abg aku tau seh....

emi,y u have to be so evil??ko ni dah tak berperasaan lagik ker??slama nie ko nak ngan aku pasal aper seh???cinta...???harta????duit????kasih syg???atau.........................atau body?????im so damn pissed off wit ya....u makin use of me tok kesenangan ko....aku bnyk berkorban tok ko but hav u ever appreciate any???NOT!!!! not even once aku dgr ko luah kan rasa syg ko dgn secara ikhlas....impian yg slama nie aku angankan pon hancur musnah semuanya.....

mungkin ko bahagia dan gembira buat org mcm nie....semoga suatu hari ko akan dpt balasannyer.....

Mahligaimu Dari Airmataku

2007-09-04T05:07:00.001+08:00

Izinkan diriku meluahkan rasa
Maafkanlah aku andai kau terasa
Biar kupaparkan apa yang terjadi
Moga engkau tak ulangi

Sungguh tak kusangka kau berpaling tadah
Setelah lamanya menjalinkan cinta
Dalam diam-diam kau sudah berpunya
Tanpa aku menyedari semuanya

Aku mendoakan agar kau bahagia
Bersama si dia insan yang kau suka
Percintaan kita tak sampai ke mana
Setakat di bibir saja sayang

Kau bina mahligai dari air mata
Yang jatuh berderai di wajah sepiku
Hancurnya hatiku bisa tak terkata
Terhumban rasa diriku

Oh aduhai ku masih ingati
Janji manis dan saat romantis
Kau pintaku supaya setia
Akhirnya kau yang berubah

Oh tuhanku tabahkan hatiku
Temukan ku dengan ketenangan
Jiwa ini dibelasah rindu tetapi apa dayaku

Kucuba pejam mata tapi tak terlena
Kerana ku masih teringat padamu
Begitu payahnya nak ku melupakan
Pernahkah engkau fikirkan oh sayang

Son Of A Gun!!!!!

2007-09-02T21:48:00.000+08:00

tis is him wif his future wife!!!!!

i had enuff...all is while i've been toleratin wif ur fcukin attitude...semua kemahuan kau aku turutkan...tapi taik yg ko lemparkan kat aku...mmg dasar BINATANG!!

aku rasa binatang lagik mulia dr ko yg ade otak tapi bodoh tak tau pakai..ade hati tapi hati tak berperasaan...mana kau letak sifat kasih syg n sifat perikemanusiaan ko ehk???

nearly dua tahun aku dgn ko...mcm2 prangai ko aku endure.ape lagik yg ko nak dari aku???tk cukup ker slame nie yg aku bagi kat ko...u've been lying to me...n all tis while aku yg bodoh pasal percayakan ko...aku bodoh krn terlalu syg kan ko!slamer nie aku tertipu dgn ke peh kata2 manis...ko peh pujuk rayu....aku buta gaknyer atau sememangnyer ko dah buta kan mata n hati aku....

aku dpt msg frm my acct in Tagged.ni pompan ckp dia tunang ko n korg nak kawin.wen i go to her profile,mampos sak!!! i nearly cry!!!its true dat tis gal really am ur tunang...theres alot of ko peh pix ngan dia...patutlah slama nie ko ckp ngan aku jgn tgu ko alik frm australia lau ko jadi pegi...rupa2nyer ko ukan nak pi keje tapi gi honeymoon n celebrate ko peh wedding kat sana....patutlah slama nie ko slalu kasi 1001 mcm alasan kat aku ehk lau nak kuar...ko mmg besaar peh jantan suar! slama nie ko tipu aku cukup2!

mmg padan pon ngan ko peh muka sal ko accident sikit ari!aku pernah ckp ngan ko kan...lau ko menduakan aku,ko akan terima akibatnyer...mmg padan ngan muka ko...ehk suar! ko ingat ehk....aku ade keturunan yg ko ckp suka buat org kan...nie sumpah keturunan boyan daun tau!aku lau sumpah ko....tak slamat hidop ko nnt....tapi aku tknk sumpah menyumpah ko....aku trimer hakikatnyer yg ko bodoh2kan aku....

i am stupid to believe evryting dat u say.u'll get ur retribution for playing out wif all the gals heart.semoga tuhan balas segala kejahatan ko...aku tknk balas tapi aku nak tgk bape jauh ko tipu aku....ni aku baru dpt tau dr mulut ko peh tunang tau blom dr mulut ko lagik....aku nak tgk bape lama ko nak main nie game.....!!!!!! u can go on wif ur game F U C K E R!!!!!!!
JANTAN S I A L!!!!

luv is in the air!!!!!!!!!

2007-08-29T04:19:00.000+08:00

i luvvvvvvvvvvvvv him soooooooooo much!!!!!!!!!
he's my one n only Ermie Suhermie...
my heart n soul...
the love of my life...
may ALLAH bless our relationship....
amin.....

Never Be Replaced..

2007-08-29T04:15:00.000+08:00

Emi....
let d lyric do d talking honey....

Baby I love you , and I'll never let you go,
But if I have to, boy I think that you should know.
All the love we made , can never be erased.
And I promise you that you will never be replaced.

Baby I love you , and I'll never let you go,
But if I have to, boy I think that you should know.
The love we made , can never be erased.
And I promise you that you will never be replaced.

I love you,
Yes I do.
I'll be with you as long as you want me to.
Until, the end , of time.

From the day I met you
I knew we'll be together
And now I know I wanna be with you forever
I wanna marry you
And I wanna have your kids
Thinkin never compares to the feeling of your kisses,
I can say I'm truly happy to this day
You make me thank god that I live my life everyday
There's never been a doubt
In my mind
That I regret ever having you by my side
But if the day comes that
I have to let you go
I think there's something I should probably let you know
Enjoyed everyday that I spent with you
And I will miss you cuz I'm happy that I had you at all

Baby i love you , and I'll never let you go,
But if I have to, boy I think that you should know,
All the love we made , can never be erased ,
And I promise you that you will never be replaced

Baby i love you ,) and I'll never let you go ,
But if I have to, boy I think that you should know ,
The love we made , can never be erased ,
And I promise you that you will never be replaced

I love you,
Yes I do
I'll be with you
As long as you want me to
until , the end , of time

Mimpi Manis

2007-08-29T03:29:00.001+08:00

seraut wajah tampan sangat mempesona
mimpiku, mimpi-mimpi manis
di balik pintu hati tersimpan rinduku
mimpiku, mimpi-mimpi manis
matamu bak panah asmara
bibirmu bak telaga madu, aduhai

* stop, engkau mencuri hatiku, hatiku

stop, engkau mencuri hatiku
mimpiku, mimpi-mimpi manis
stop, engkau mencuri hatiku, hatiku
stop, engkau mencuri hatiku

mimpiku, mimpi-mimpi manis
mimpiku, mimpi-mimpi manis
tutur bahasamu yg penuh kata-kata manja
bisik-bisik cinta menyentuh hatiku

tak mungkin dapat kulupakan
di dalam dunia hanyalah engkau yang ku cinta
engkaulah jiwaku, engkaulah nafasku
menjadi pendamping hidupku
bak serumpun sumpah janji berdua

bak sekata kita saling setia
bak serumpun sumpah janji berdua
bak sekata kita saling setia

repeat *

mimpiku, mimpi-mimpi manis
mimpiku, mimpi-mimpi manis

Y???

2007-08-27T04:20:00.000+08:00

y must i kip sufferin after im happy for awhile??i do like him n comfortable wif him but i dunno y we r driftin apart...he kept silent...hmmm...since he kippin silent i tend to miss him...wen i saw him dat day we didnt talk at all...i dunno y...dunno wats d reason for him not talkin to me...wat have i done??im confused...

===============================================================================================================

Emi wants to cum back to me...for me,i really luv him n cant live w/o him...we have confess wif each other...i dunno y must he said dat i'll regret being wif him...i really luv him...but wat i find out really hurt me thou...but dats all in the past...if he's willing to change his behaviour n his flirty character...by all means im willing to accept him back in my life...i really luv him soo much dat i cried wen he called me again....was soo happy...i juz hope n pray dat he really meant wat he say n prove to me dat he can take care of me n luv me wholeheartedly....

p/s:the above mention story dat doesnt have any names is not bout emi....let his name be kept as my life secrets....

ku ukir namamu

2007-08-25T04:02:00.000+08:00

Ku terpaut sejak pertemuan itu
Hatiku berkata ingin mengenali mu
Setiap malam wajahmu terbayang
Disaksikan sinaran bulan

Titisan hujan bagaikan harapanku
Tinggi langit tak mungkinkan tercapai
Tinggi gunung jadi penghalang
Hasratku oh sayang

( korus )
Lautan api
Sudah pun kurenangi
Kuukirkan namamu

Di hati yang jadi pujaanku

Gerbang kebahagian terpancar indah
Tapi hanya dengan sekelip mata
Sekeping hati yang sudah berpunya
Pergi dan takan kembali

Saat Hilang Cintamu......

2007-08-25T03:21:00.000+08:00

Mulanya sukar untuk ku tempuh
Tapi terpaksa ku buat sejak kau tiada
Sendirian ku tahankan duka ku
Kepayahan memadam rindu
Selama ini aku meyakini
Kau bahagia dengan insan yang kau sanjungi
Namun ternyata salah dugaan ku
Dengar khabarmu yang pilu

Kini engkau menyesali
Dan ubati luka mu sendiri
Pengorbanan mu menjadi debu
Dipersenda kasih mu...
Pasti kau sudah rasai...
Keperihan hati yang ku tanggungi
Walau tidak pernah ku meminta
Kau di balas begitu ...
Semua ini telah ku harungi
Kepahitan rasa bukan untuk selamanya
Kesabaran menguatkan jiwa ku
Demi meyambung hidup ke akhir waktu

.................

2007-08-22T04:27:00.000+08:00

dat mudder fuckin biatch bitch bout me in her blog again today.....

link---

http://anakmelayu.com/blogs/blog.php?id=79178

am in luv again!!!!wakakaka

2007-08-19T20:23:00.000+08:00

oh gosh!!
izit true wat i juz found out...???
OMG

ok...tu jek impression aku after ku kol elly...aku ingatkan yg im dreaming but ternyata tidak coz aku now pat keje...heheheh....

to u...
i do feel comfortable wif u...n i do admit dat i like u...but for me to make d 1st move...no way ok...im a gal seh...tkkn gal nak make d 1st move kan...hehehehe....but who cares...i have to admit...i do like u...n i hope dat tings can work out between us,but we still hav to get to know each other more...coz i taknk nnt lau kiter rush into r'ship den we break up,we will lose d frenship seh....im really happy wen im wif u...only dat maybe im still afraid bout my past commitment wif my ex...n im afraid dat if i hope too much frm u i'll end up in d losing part...i dont want to get hurt again seh...i've suffer enuff in my luv life n i dont want another suffering...if tings work out between us...all i want is ur trust n TLC.i dont like to be control or controllin others...but for now...we juz go wif d flow...unless dat u r sure wif ur feelings den come forward n tell me...i'll be waiting for u n will accept u wif open arms...i luv u...

ceybah...aku mode feeling2 sak...heheeh...tis is wat i feel now...aku tau korg mesti ckp...dont rush into r'ship la gal...its too early...n watever lah...i noe k...im taking tings slowly...for now juz wait n see....

Im Sorry,GoodBye.......

2007-08-19T17:15:00.000+08:00

Sebelum bertemu denganmu hidupku bahagia
Semenjak bertemu denganmu ku makin bahagia
Semakin lama aku semakin tahu tentang engkau
Sedikit kecewa ternyata engkau tak baik

Pertama-tama semua manis yg engkau berikan
Membuat aku merasakan cinta sebenarnya
Semakin hari semakin terungkap yg sesungguhnya
Ku makin kecewa ternyata kau penuh dusta

(Korus)
Maafkan ku harus pergi
Ku tak suka dengan ini
Aku tak bodoh
Seperti kekasihmu yang lain

Terima kasih oh Tuhan
Kau tunjukkan siapa dia
Maaf kita putus
So thank you so much
I’m sorry, goodbye

Seribu cara kau membuaiku dengan puitis
Maybe kau lupa bahwa aku pun juga manusia
Yang punya mata, punya hati, dan perasaan
Maaf aku pergi dan takkan untukmu lagi

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tis song really suit those who ever hurt ma feeling...
mukakakakak.....im more happy now...w/o u all by my side...
tahnx u sooooooo much!
=====================================

thnx 4 luvin me....

2007-08-19T16:24:00.000+08:00

tis is dedicated to him...whom now i treat as a bro n a gd fren.....

u came into my life soon after i get to noe evry1 in the grp....u r kindda jiwa kwn...its good...but wen u ask me to be ur someone...im shocked...its like u dont even know me inside out den u want to be wif me....i admit dat i do like u but to be wif u dat tym its still too early...i did ask u to wait if u really luv me...u said u will.wen i join in d 2nd outing to dat ghosthunting trip i admit dat i been kindda moody rite after d trip...im sory dat u pon terkene tempias my sikap yg tgh moody dat tym...den i noe dat u were angry as u tros tak layan i...i kindda feel guilty but u noe dat luv cant be force kan...wen came to dat person bday...i was shocked dat u kip going here n dere wif her...im ok wif it coz its ur life...u r d one who choose it...he ever ask wether im jealous bout u n her or not...seriously im not but in my mind i was like thinking...sekejapnyer cinta u da beralih arah...???WTH seh...but im ok wif it coz i noe dat maybe u found sum1...its fine wif me...as i never promise u anyting....

den once again the prob arise....after u read my blog bout him...it seems dat u kindda jealous wat happen betwin us...

u kip on asking me y its hard for me to accept u rite...
my ans will be....its not hard but its juz dat its tooooo early for us to get committed...get to noe each other first my darl b4 u wanna spend ur days wif sum1 whom u r proud to call GF!!!

u tell me dat u only luv me rite....
my ans...its kindda bullshit u noe dat!if u only luv me u wont be wif her...

now my advise to u is dat.....
since u n her r together....dont play out wif her feelings...she luvs u my dear...treat her nicely....since u ade tu niat nak get married to her...den learn to be a good hubby n a good daddy....i wish u all the best...seeing u happy wif her will make me happy too....thanx for luvin me my dear...

===++DISCLAIMER++===
to those who dont really noe wats happening betwin me and tis person mention in here...juz ignore it ok.. its all in d past...for now we r only fren..im sory if tis blog cause hatred or watever shitty feelings im sory ok...juz pouring out wat is being kept in my heart...wa da tknk simpan masaalah lagik lah....fed up tau...fening!!!!!

WTH

2007-08-18T19:31:00.001+08:00

me being vain

2007-08-18T19:04:00.001+08:00

y its bout her again???

2007-08-18T15:34:00.000+08:00

pompan nie kan tak abis2 kasi masaalah lah....aku tak tau nak ckp ape kat dia seh....aku pon taknak ckp ngan dia lagik...kiter semua dah pangkah dia....n aku rasa bdk2 lain pon dah pangkah dia...dia da drop nick SyaitAM tu dah lah....ni nak back up diri sendirik akai nick syaitAM...ape jek...dia tak sedar ker yg dia tu dah di pulaukan oleh bdk2 syaitam??nmpk sah ni pompan tak sedar dirik ah...wa tak tau nak ckp ape agik...dia tk abis2 nak kasi masaalah jek....now pat am nga hangat ade org buat blog pasal dia...dahtu babitkan syaitam juz bcoz dektu pon dr syaitam...ape nie???aku tak paham ah org2 nie semua...selidik dulu sebelum bersuare....PAHAM????!!!!

nari hari wa bingit...

~untitled~

2007-08-17T23:15:00.000+08:00

y it happen wen u really luv sum1 truly....happen to drop by his profile in tagged,wat he said in his profile i dont noe whom it were meant for...dont really tink its abt me...coz i noe dat he dont luv me n wont really care bout me...below is wat he said in his profile...i quote sum of it...

"Helmi Boi say
Cinta itu aneh, sukar ditafsirkan.datangnya bukan dari paksaan, perginya pula tanpa kerelaan. Mungkin benar tatkalakita kehilangan barulah kita menyedari,mungkin benar saat kita terluka barulah kita mengerti,mungkin benar bila kita rasa rindu yang sangat dalam, barulah kita sedari berapa besar makna dan erti seseorang bagi kita. Sayang, mengertilah hati ku ini yang terluka , nantikan ku di pintu syurga, hanya airmata ......menjadi teman hidup ku "

"Aku dan dia
Kini semuanye berakhir tanpa kata-kata, hanya kenangan aku dan dia bermain di benak fikiranku.Entah mengapa ku masih merindui dah menyayangi nya, munkin kerana cinta yang amat dalam. Tapi dikau tak mengerti isi hati ku. Dikau pergi mementingkan segala yang ada di sekelilingmu, tanpa hiraukan perasaan dan pengorbananku selama ini. Hanya airmata yang menjadi teman setia hidupku ... "

if it were really meant for me im willing to get back to him...but too bad it wasnt for me...eventhou he dont say...i knew it....juz hope dat d girl dat he meant in tis quote comes back to him...he really luv u...im returning him to u...

n to helmi/emi....i juz hope dat u will be happy wif whoever u choose to be wif...i sacrifice alot for u...but u have neve appreciate me...be happy...coz by seeing u happy it would make me happy too...may ur life is blessed..

Apa Artinya Cinta????

2007-08-17T21:39:00.000+08:00

Tiba-tiba engkau ada
Kemudian engkau hadir
Laksana kerdil ku memeluk
Lihat aku lebih dalam

Di matamu ku melihat
Ada cinta yang tersirat
Sirami hati merebak

Barangkali aku salah
Ku terdiam bukan bisu
Tahu engkau besar malu
Tutupi rasa gelisah

Biar saja waktu nanti
Yang menikmati kisah ini
Bersamamu aku senang

Belum juga kah kau menyadarinya
Akulah yang pantas untuk kau cintai
Di bawah langit biru aku bersumpah
Diriku tanpamu apa artinya cinta

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My Workpiece

2007-08-17T20:31:00.000+08:00

im sooooo damn bored at werk....tis is wat i do wif all my pix....hahahaha....boring tahap maksimum seh.....haiz.....tgk lah pix aku nie ehk....wat i c is dat muka aku nie cam berubah ubah ah....got any comments or not???wa pelik ah tgk muka wa sendirik....but some jek lah yg lain...ade yg same ajer...lu org comments skit...hehehehe.....

adios amigos...
aku berambos...

moving on...???

2007-08-17T17:52:00.000+08:00

tings have been goin on very smooth....im moving on...he's happy now wif his new found love(or shld i say target)...as for me...im moving on....cant u see???of cos u cant...as u can only read it....hehehehehe.......

been goin out too frequent now....hahaha...it so not me ok to go out nearly evryday....for now i prefer to be out rather den sit at home n tink bout all d stupid probs dat evolve arnd me....kindda suck u noe....for now i dont really care...i go out wif evry1 n wif whoever i want....

lately i heard tounges wagging bout me....rumours have been spread dat i got somting on wif diddy....WTF seh...doesnt mean tat we took pix together means dat we r bf/gf rite???all these ppl got nutin to do izzit??!! first it was him n now diddy...next who is goin to be the target???!!! cant be bothered wif u ppl man...WTH!!! im single wat...i can go out wif whoever i wish to go out wif ok....i dont ask u for money to go out rite???!!! dont really care bout tis gossip....to hell wif it....cant be bothered coz i cant close ppls mouth,once u r tired wif gossippin...den u'll stop....so go on n be a gossip monger n spread stories ok??! i cant be bother wif ya.

for those cuzin of mine dat noe wat happen to me lately....im tellin u ppl dat im moving on....im starting life afresh...turnin over a new leaf can be kindda hard but im changing for good....dont ya ppl worry ok??n plssss.....dont ever matchmake me wif anyone ok?im not interested at d moment...heheheheh.....let me find d love of my life....haiz....tho its kindda hard... *winks*

time check:7:28pm
im @ werk da dey....
got work to do...
adios...

Date wif Diddy Sanchez(hahahah)

2007-08-16T00:46:00.000+08:00

mit up wif diddy after he finish werk....kindda weird rite???(i noe)but ok lah....at least i dont tink much bout my prob wen go out wif him....ketawe all d way seh....dia biasa ah ngan lawak bodoh dia n muka slamber dia....i was away frm all prob for awhile....but wen i reach werk...zappp....al the prob dtg alik seh.....we mit up at City Hall...diddy biasa lmbt....bingit jek aku kene tgu....after dat we go ps den buy sumting to eat n lepak kat istana park...korg jgn pikir lain k...kiter lepak tmpt open...ukan tmpt sunyi....here are some pix taken by me....jgn terkejutsz k....wa ngan diddy takde paper...we r JUST FRIEND!!!!

isap rokok ngan muka2 seh...

OMG....im crushed!!!

purrrfect!!!

ware r u luking at diddy????

k korg njoy lah ehk....asal jgn uat gosip sua....aku ngan dia tkde paper....lau satu AM tau...mampos aku....kecoh......k lah....gtg.....will post more if im not lazy...heheheh....adios amigos.....

pls get outta ma lyf....

2007-08-15T01:29:00.000+08:00

seandainya dpt ku putarkan masa....akan ku hentikan nye dr bergerak....ku ingin berada dlm waktu itu saja....alangkah bahagia nya aku di saat itu....mungkin aku buta...atau kurang pernilaian...sesungguhnya cinta itu buta dan boleh membutakn org yg bercinta.....

pertama kali ku berjumpa dgn nya...mata bertentang mata(hehehehe....da mcm citer industan plak)aku tak tau knaper aku feel tu mcm ah...but i juz ignore dat feeling....den thru d upcuming meet up too i feel dat way but i juz ignore dat feeling....until to the mit up lately for his bday....i dunno y...he's so weird dat day....maybe he had drink too much or....i dunno....after the cake cutting @ mamak...we went for karaoke @ party world...having so much fun...at bout 4 after karaoke,kiter decide to go makan at mamak again....me and him walk 1st...we didnt wait for d others....wen we walk past heeran...i did ask him is he ok??den he say..."if im not ok naper u taknk hold my hand??" i was like...huh...ok juz hold hands nutin wrong per....den we walk as we talk...suddenly he came up the topic bout us...he say dat he noes dat i like him since d 1st mit up...i was like shock seh....den he ask me to confess....k fine...for the very 1st tym in my life aku confess kat sum1 yg aku tol2 suker kat dia...den he ask y him....i juz say dat "i juz like u d way u r...i dont care of ur status and age...since u ask me to confess den i've said my side of story...but dont u worry...i wont force u in this...." den i ask him to confess anyting dat he wanna say....he say "i oso like u but giv me sumtime coz i nid to settle lots of probs..." den d ting dat i dont xpect to happen is dat...he kish me on my lips....i was like....WTF sia.....giler per dekni....aku da mcm nak ketawa pon ade but tgk muka dia serious ku pon tak jadik nak ketawa....at 1st i was happy but in a split second aku change akunyer mind seh....i tink back...dgn gal lain dia leh kish n pelok sana sini....ape lagik ngan aku nie yg jauh lebih muda dr dia....haiz....kindda weird dat nite but im happy....wen @ mamak...he was like nak blang evrybody per...aku da tkut org spot seh...but dia sardin jek....so aku pon layankan je lah coz aku tot da mabuk....so d next day wen aku online...i ask him dia he noes wat he say last nyte....he juz say dat "im sory but let leave it to time n fate..."so i was like ok lah since ko da ckp gitu aku ok jek ah.....

after dat incident aku admit kiter makin rapat....n i kindda feel jeles biler dia selit pat pompan lain....but after d incident pat chalet aku....i say i promise myself to ignore him n juz treat him as a bro jek....

tym kat chalet aku...tat is wen i feel totally upset sak....dia menyelit pat si brand esbok tu....menyirap darah aku....nasib baik tym dorg go 7-11 aku tak ikot...coz ayie dtg...ku citer pat ayie den aku plak kene marah...pe seh....haiz....from now on ku rasa ku tkkn get committed easily....aku tak pernah rasa upset terok nie mcm....im moving on now....im happy for him to found a new target....let him be...

wat goes arnd cums arnd.....

Whine Up!!!

2007-08-12T22:47:00.001+08:00

Kat Deluna-Whine Up

Sampai ku menutup mata.......

2007-08-05T05:39:00.000+08:00

embun di pagi buta
menebarkan bau basah
detik demi detik ku hitung
inikah saat ku pergi

oh Tuhan ku cinta dia
berikanlah aku hidup
takkan ku sakiti dia
hukum aku bila terjadi

reff: aku tak mudah mencintai
aku tak mudah mengaku ku cinta
aku tak mudah mengatakan
aku jatuh cinta

senandungku hanya untuk cinta
tirakatku hanya untuk engkau
tiada dusta sumpah ku cinta
sampai ku menutup mata
cintaku sampai ku menutup mata

oh Tuhan ku cinta dia
berikanlah aku hidup
takkan ku sakiti dia
hukum aku bila terjadi

Iz Tis Called Fate???

2007-08-05T03:05:00.000+08:00

sesungguhnya cinta itu aneh....mengapa harus ku bercinta lagi....mengapa ku jatuh cinta lagi....???dan mengapa dia???

saat ku bersamanya amat singkat....saat ku mengenalinya juga begitu...tapi mengapa aku ade parasaan padanya....i juz hate myself...i can easily fall in luv but cant easily forget a person dat i luv.....shit seh.....bingit pon ade.....but i juz cant stop thinkin bout him....he is a very nice person...eventhough our age gap is diff....feels like he's d one dat i like....mungkin blom takdir aku nak dpt dia kot...but seriously i was sooooooooo happy seh....smlm i feel like dunia nie aku yg punya...lau bleh aku cam tknk alik jek....hehehehehe....but afteall it takes time to win his heart....haiz....may fate brot us together one day.....amin.....

my belated bday gifts

2007-08-01T20:22:00.000+08:00

thnx to aunt hazel n kak ida for tis gift...its for my belated 21st bday...thnx alot...luv tis watch....

Beautiful Girl

2007-07-31T19:04:00.001+08:00

Sean Kingston Vid

my brooch werkz again....

2007-07-29T23:47:00.001+08:00

SyaitAM

2007-07-29T23:44:00.001+08:00

Adakah ini cintaku???

2007-07-29T23:30:00.000+08:00

hadir mu tak pernah ku duga....kau dtg mengisi kekosongan hatiku saat si dia pergi dari hidup ku...saat ku dgnmu bagai mimpi indah yg jarang hadir...ku mula menyukai mu setelah kau ungkapkan kata cinta padaku...mmg...mungkin org lain akan mengatakan yg aku gila...tapi ini lah kenyataan nya....

saat ku mula menyintaimu...kau pergi kerana tugas...ku merindui mu selalu...tiap mlm kenangan indah kita muncul dlm tidurku....aku binggung...adakah ini cinta...??

sebelum kau pergi...pertengkaran terjadi antara kita...angkara sahabatku dan sahabatmu...punca nya juga tidakku mengerti...kau diam lalu berlalu pergi....

mengapa ini terjadi saat aku mula menyayangi dirimu...ku terdiam dan terpaku....adaka ini takdirku...aku pasrah...

pergimu dari sisiku tak ku sesali...mungkin ini takdir yg harus ku terima...hanya hingga kini ku tak mampu utk meghilangkan mu dari ingatan ku...

oh tuhan...sesungguhnya ku amat menyintai dirinya....hanya ku pinta kebahagiaan selalu disampingnya....ku relakan ia pergi walau hatiku tarluka......

my brooch work

2007-07-17T04:23:00.000+08:00

here are some of the design...will upload more...do enquire more if u like it...