Cry

I'm not the type to get my heart broken
I'm not the type to get upset and cry
Cause I never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye
Relationships don't get deep to me
Never got the whole in love thing
And someone can say they love me truely
But at the time it didn't mean a thing

My mind is gone, i'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears i'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

Did it happen when we first kissed
Cause it's hurting me to let it go
Maybe cause we spent so much time
And I know that it's no more
I shoulda never let you hold me baby
Maybe why i'm sad to see us apart
I didn't give to you on purpose
Gotta figure out how you stole my heart

My mind is gone, i'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears i'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

How did I get here with you, i'll never know
I never meant to let it get so, personal
After all I tried to do, stay away from loving you
I'm broken hearted, I can't let you know
And I won't let it show
You won't see me cry

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

wazzup!!!!

its been awhile since i last bloggin in here...been bz wif life...due to being sooo bz,i fall sick...juz recover frm flu n sore throat...

last mth on may25,me n my bunch of AMers fren organized a camp...its a retreat camp for the unfortunate kids....a 3days 2nyte camp...i had sooo much fun wif my fren n the kids....those bunch of munchkinz can be cute n irritating at times...hahahahaha...but afterall we had lotsa fun....

life has been suck for me now...tings are not goin on the way it shld be...guys,now its a big NO for me...my priority for now is WORK n $$$$ plus mummy n ayah...this 2 most dearest ppl in my life...aku sanggup bergadai nyawa utk dorg....mataer mana2 bleh carik but not my parents....its only dat dorg dont really understand me...they still treat me like a child eventhou im goin 22 tis cuming july....bosan tau hidop mcm nie....but i noe dorg kongkong aku pon psl dorg care n luv me as im their only dotter...but at tym aku pon nak freedom seh...haiz...wat can i do...or wat shld i do...nak mengadu nasib ngan adik bradik...abg aku pon bukannyer pedulikan aku pon....abg hery? dia takkn mungkin lah nak tlg aku...dia bnyk dgr ckp bini dia and sibok ngan family sblh bini dia....abg aim?? dia tak abis2 besarkan kwn dia...knapa lah adik bradik aku tak mcm adik bradik org lain?? aku slalu impikan hidup berkeluarga yg aman damai bahagia...tapi...aku adik bradik slalu bertekak....abg hery slalu nak bantah aper yg aku ckp...walaupon aku ckp betol dia ttp nak salahkan aku jugak....bingit seh at tyms...sedih pon ader...napa lah abg2 aku tak mcm abg2 org lain....yg care bout their adik...remember bday adik dia...slalu kuar together...can talk tings out together...help one another...napa abg2 aku tak mcm tu ehk? dulu masa kecik2 aku slalu bangga bila org tnye aku ada abg ker tak...but now aku tak rasa pape pon...abg2 aku yg dulu aku bangga2kan kini ntah hilang kemana...aku rasa mcm aku nie anak tunggal plak....napa ehk? nak ngadu ngan kakak ipar...dulu bleh lah...b4 dia kawin ngan abg aku...slalu ajak aku kuar...tgk wayang...chill out...but now...she seems diff...dia dah jauh berbeza...mmg manusia akan berubah...tapi perubahan ini bukan mendtgkan kebaikan malah mendtgkan kesedihan utk aku...mungkin mmg lumrah sifat aku nie pemanja...spoilt bratz..but...aku pon ada hati dan prasaan...pernah ker abg2 aku fikir how i feel wen they call me names...ejek2 aku...kutuk aku...till i ever tink dat im not fit to be their only small sister...aku slalu cemburu melihat kemesraan org lain yg syg menyayang antara adik bradik....y cant i hav dat?? apa salah aku...i've tried to mend my ways...change my attitude...but they dont seems to care at all....smpi aku even think of staying alone like rent a room or watever...bawa diri jauh dari semua....

k lah enuff bout my family....bosan ah ckp psl dorg....lets talk bout my fren....one of the thursday early june...aku kuar jmp kwn2 aku...had lots of fun wif them...being wif them make me feel happy...aku lupa semua masaalah aku...we talk..we laugh,we dance...dat day makes me feel like im in heaven...but not wen tym roadblock lah k...hehehehe....kete bad keen tahan...n kita tersadai pat tepi jln for nearly 2hr psl tgu yan smpi to drive me,elly n nit back.really had fun dat nyte....thnx them for making my day.....n btwn me n nit...i've cleared evryting to her....lapang dada aku...aku tanak lost the frenship....atleast now she noes the truth dat between aku ngan afad is juz a fren jek....amin...lepas satu masaalah...for now im thinkin of goin for a short trip...nak hilangkan stress n cum back as a new me!!!! cant wait...tapi bila ehk?? but for now aku kene go n merayu to my aunt to let me take annual leave...hehehehe....